30 weeks and 4 days.

Well today was one of those weird lazy but somewhat busy days. I woke up around 5AM because what’s sleep? I went on my phone for a bit but then I eventually turned the TV on and watched the news. Jesse had to wake up early for work today anyways so he eventually got up and started to get ready. I think I passed out around 6 or 6:30 and then didn’t wake up again until 9. I didn’t have any plans for the day but wanted to make a trip to Trader Joe’s so I ended up taking Wilson with me around 1. Have you guys heard of that seasoning blend called Everything but the Bagel? I hear so many people rave about it online so I decided to give it a try. I also heard about some Chickenless Orange Chicken that I wanted to try but I had no luck and they didn’t have any so I got the regular Orange Chicken to try out for dinner tonight. Lately I just haven’t been in the mood to eat or cook meat so we’ll see how this regular orange chicken turns out. I also got some cauliflower pizza crust that I’m excited to try for dinner tomorrow night. I plan on just making a cheese, olive, and pepperoni pizza and hopefully that turns out alright; I wanted a pizza that was relatively low carb and I’ve been wanting to try cauliflower crust pizza for a while now.

Baby moves around a lot still. He was pretty chill earlier but I got a coffee from Starbucks (tall iced coffee unsweetened with soy milk 😉 ) and that eventually kicked in and got him to move around more haha. I was just thinking earlier how I never drank coffee but now that I’m pregnant I see myself wanting it more. Why is that? So weird. I know I’m allowed to have about a cup or so a day, but I only have it every once in a while so I think it’s okay. Plus I always get a size tall, never more than that so I assume there isn’t much coffee in there anyways. The only symptoms I’ve had this past week are more headaches. Yesterday I woke up with one and it lasted all day long, which made me super lazy and just not feel well. I took a nap around 3pm and didn’t wake up until around 5. I know I mentioned being emotional in one of my last posts, which is still true to this week as well. I’m just one big ball of sensitivity! Help! Someone hold me and tell me I’m pretty (kidding).

Diabetes wise, I feel so alone. Being sick really messed me up and set me back, but I feel like I’m getting closer to my goals of having everything under control. I know I could email my doctors but to me there’s no point in doing that because only I know my body and their suggestions haven’t really worked much in the past so I figured I’d just figure it all out on my own. I’m still dealing with some high blood sugars but they haven’t been as bad the past couple of days. I’m trying to take things slow when adjusting insulin so I don’t run into any hypo’s again since that scared the crap out of me.

Welp, my baby shower is almost here! I’m getting excited and stressed out about it. I don’t know why I stress over it but I do. I shouldn’t be since I’m not the one decorating or setting things up but I’ve still been included in the decisions. I’m getting my hair done on Thursday and I also get my dress delivered on Thursday too and I’m praying my hair turns out good and my dress looks good on me. I’m usually not a dress person and I don’t like wearing dresses when I’m pale but we’re just going to roll with it. Hopefully it fits, too! If this dress doesn’t work out then I’m back to square one with deciding on what I’m going to wear. I know, such first world problems.

Anyways, I can’t think of anything else that’s new that has happened within the past week! It’s been pretty chill. We did get a new camera because I wanted a nice camera to take pictures of little one with once he’s here. I still have an iPhone 6 which doesn’t always have the best camera quality. The camera we got is nice because it has WiFi so all the photo’s I take I can send to my phone! I love it. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me because I’m meeting up with a few different people throughout the day. Don’t be fooled though, I’m really not that important and because I like to consider myself quite an introvert I already know I’m going to be wiped out after and will want to come home and decompress for like, a day and half haha.

And here’s a cute picture of my dog because why not? Don’t you just want to squeeze his cute face and give him all the kisses? No? Just me? 😂

24 weeks and 3 days.

Okay guys I am officially BORED out of my mind being at home. Three more months of this?! What the heck am I going to do? Holy guacamole. Today is a rainy day so I did not want to leave my house and drive with all the crazies. I swear people in California don’t know how to drive as soon as water touches the ground. I am currently listening to my Ashanti Pandora radio station and typing this (duh). I was playing with my dog a little bit ago but I can only throw a toy around for so long before I get bored of doing it. I feel bad, maybe I’ll make Jesse go for a rain walk later on when he gets home so Wilson can get out of the house. I’m sure Jesse would love that idea as I am usually the one who would say no to that because I hate the cold lol. The things I do when I’m bored and stuck at home.

I’m starting to pop for sure. I feel huge today. My back pain is actually a lot better this week than last. I have only experienced the sciatica pain but no lower back pain, thank goodness! That hurt the most for sure. We finally put the baby’s crib together last night! It’s so cute, I can’t wait until the dresser comes tomorrow. We still need to clean the room up a bit but we’re making progress! Days like today just make me want to hold him already and kiss him and cuddle him. We can’t wait for him to arrive!

I messed up big last night with dinner! We got Mexican food and I usually eat tacos because they’re easy to carb count (and delicious of course) but I splurged and got a burrito last night! The burrito was amazing but my number went through the roof (above 200) and I gave a few corrections to try and bring it down. I cannot believe I did that to myself! No burritos for the remainder of this pregnancy, I promise. Foods I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t enjoy anymore are pancakes, pizza, and now burritos lol. I’m sure there’s more but I can’t seem to think right now. I actually got a call from my diabetes nurse today checking up on me. I told her about the burrito incident but I’m wondering if she looked up my numbers through my Dexcom and saw for herself and that’s why she called? Hmmm. It’s okay though. Today I started to track my meals and numbers like I did before I was pregnant. I found my old Food Diary that I ordered off Etsy over a year ago (designed for diabetics) and it’s been so helpful already today! It will really come in handy when I see the doctors next because they always try and ask me, “So on the 2nd your number was 150, what did you eat? Did you correct?” and I’m always like, uhhhh what day was that again??? So this will help tremendously with that I think!

I’m in a good mood today, despite being super bored at home. I’ve started reading a book I found that I never finished and I also got so bored that I did my makeup and hair for absolutely no reason! I’m still in my pajamas, haha. Anyways, I plan on getting my hair done this week! I actually can’t stand it right now and I need something new so I’m waiting until I get paid to make an appointment. I mean, I could actually just make an appointment now but I hate talking on the phone. Am I weird for that? I would much rather go in somewhere to talk to someone rather than speak to them on the phone in case I can’t understand them or something. Well, Jesse just got home and I’ve been craving human interaction all day so it’s time to go bug him!

Family.

I was able to spend time with some family today that I don’t get to see often. Unfortunately we were brought together due to a death in the family. My uncle passed away last night. To be honest, I didn’t see him very often but of course I loved him. I always remember him being a quiet but very sweet man. I saw him a few weeks ago and he couldn’t talk but when he saw me he got this big smile on his face and put his arm out to hug me. I can’t help but feel so sad for my aunt during this time. I’m so glad he’s not suffering anymore, but I know this will be so hard for her. To be with someone since you were 17 years old and having them as your best friend and partner in life and then losing them seems…..more awful than I can even put into words. I’ve been with my boyfriend since I was 17 and I just couldn’t imagine the heartache that would bring me if I were to lose him. My best friend. I love my aunt so much. She’s one of the best people I have in my life. The most supportive and understanding person. You could tell her anything about yourself and she would never judge you. And not to mention she gives the best back scratches.

Being around my cousins today just made my day honestly. It sucks that we were brought together today because of something sad, but I also think it’s special because even if we don’t see each other at all, we’re able to come together as a family and be there for each other. I love all of my cousins. Playing with the little ones was so fun, and tiring. Maybe because i’m pregnant and tired, but most likely because i’m lazy lol. I loved seeing my second cousins who are the oldest. They are gooorgeouss and so smart and ugh, I wish I had spent more time with them. That’s the shitty part about living kinda far. I mean, it’s really only a couple of hours but when you’re a teenager you don’t always think about seeing your family who lives far from you. Now that i’m older I wish things were different.

My family is kind of a big ball of…a somewhat mess. I won’t go into full detail but things aren’t always easy for everyone. I’m sure every family has their drama and issues but stubbornness definitely runs deep into my family. Once you piss someone off, you could be cut off for life. Personally, I’m not that way. At least I try not to be, but if someone wants to cut me out, I’m not one to chase after them either. If you hurt me bad enough and aren’t willing to communicate to resolve the problem then I’ll stay gone. Is that bad? I don’t know, but that’s just how I deal with that kind of situation.

Anyways, I am 10 weeks and 2 days today. The only symptoms so far are gas (TMI, sorry, but everything seems to make me fart. lol), and the nausea is coming back but only at certain times so it’s not an all day thing like it was before. I can’t really think of anything else at the moment. I have another doctor appointment on Wednesday so I can’t wait to see my little one bigger and hopefully measuring perfectly.

I’ll update when I can!