30 weeks and 4 days.

Well today was one of those weird lazy but somewhat busy days. I woke up around 5AM because what’s sleep? I went on my phone for a bit but then I eventually turned the TV on and watched the news. Jesse had to wake up early for work today anyways so he eventually got up and started to get ready. I think I passed out around 6 or 6:30 and then didn’t wake up again until 9. I didn’t have any plans for the day but wanted to make a trip to Trader Joe’s so I ended up taking Wilson with me around 1. Have you guys heard of that seasoning blend called Everything but the Bagel? I hear so many people rave about it online so I decided to give it a try. I also heard about some Chickenless Orange Chicken that I wanted to try but I had no luck and they didn’t have any so I got the regular Orange Chicken to try out for dinner tonight. Lately I just haven’t been in the mood to eat or cook meat so we’ll see how this regular orange chicken turns out. I also got some cauliflower pizza crust that I’m excited to try for dinner tomorrow night. I plan on just making a cheese, olive, and pepperoni pizza and hopefully that turns out alright; I wanted a pizza that was relatively low carb and I’ve been wanting to try cauliflower crust pizza for a while now.

Baby moves around a lot still. He was pretty chill earlier but I got a coffee from Starbucks (tall iced coffee unsweetened with soy milk 😉 ) and that eventually kicked in and got him to move around more haha. I was just thinking earlier how I never drank coffee but now that I’m pregnant I see myself wanting it more. Why is that? So weird. I know I’m allowed to have about a cup or so a day, but I only have it every once in a while so I think it’s okay. Plus I always get a size tall, never more than that so I assume there isn’t much coffee in there anyways. The only symptoms I’ve had this past week are more headaches. Yesterday I woke up with one and it lasted all day long, which made me super lazy and just not feel well. I took a nap around 3pm and didn’t wake up until around 5. I know I mentioned being emotional in one of my last posts, which is still true to this week as well. I’m just one big ball of sensitivity! Help! Someone hold me and tell me I’m pretty (kidding).

Diabetes wise, I feel so alone. Being sick really messed me up and set me back, but I feel like I’m getting closer to my goals of having everything under control. I know I could email my doctors but to me there’s no point in doing that because only I know my body and their suggestions haven’t really worked much in the past so I figured I’d just figure it all out on my own. I’m still dealing with some high blood sugars but they haven’t been as bad the past couple of days. I’m trying to take things slow when adjusting insulin so I don’t run into any hypo’s again since that scared the crap out of me.

Welp, my baby shower is almost here! I’m getting excited and stressed out about it. I don’t know why I stress over it but I do. I shouldn’t be since I’m not the one decorating or setting things up but I’ve still been included in the decisions. I’m getting my hair done on Thursday and I also get my dress delivered on Thursday too and I’m praying my hair turns out good and my dress looks good on me. I’m usually not a dress person and I don’t like wearing dresses when I’m pale but we’re just going to roll with it. Hopefully it fits, too! If this dress doesn’t work out then I’m back to square one with deciding on what I’m going to wear. I know, such first world problems.

Anyways, I can’t think of anything else that’s new that has happened within the past week! It’s been pretty chill. We did get a new camera because I wanted a nice camera to take pictures of little one with once he’s here. I still have an iPhone 6 which doesn’t always have the best camera quality. The camera we got is nice because it has WiFi so all the photo’s I take I can send to my phone! I love it. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me because I’m meeting up with a few different people throughout the day. Don’t be fooled though, I’m really not that important and because I like to consider myself quite an introvert I already know I’m going to be wiped out after and will want to come home and decompress for like, a day and half haha.

And here’s a cute picture of my dog because why not? Don’t you just want to squeeze his cute face and give him all the kisses? No? Just me? 😂

Type 1 Diabetes.

I wanted to make a post dedicated to type one diabetes. I feel like every time I tell someone I’m diabetic, they don’t quite understand it. No worries though, because before I got diabetes (about two years ago) I also had no idea what it really was. I only saw those commercials on TV and I had only known about one girl (an old friends little sister) who had diabetes but I didn’t know the difference between her diabetes and the kind they show in commercials with the old people.

Let’s start with the basics.

Type 1 diabetes (T1D) is an autoimmune disease that occurs when a person’s pancreas stops producing insulin, the hormone that controls blood-sugar levels. T1D develops when the insulin-producing pancreatic beta cells are mistakenly destroyed by the body’s immune system. The cause of this attack is still being researched, however scientists believe the cause may have genetic and environmental components. There is nothing anyone can do to prevent T1D. Presently, there is no known cure (definition provided by jdrf.org).

Type 2 diabetes, your body does not use insulin properly. This is called insulin resistance. At first, the pancreas makes extra insulin to make up for it. But, over time your pancreas isn’t able to keep up and can’t make enough insulin to keep your blood glucose levels normal. Type 2 is treated with lifestyle changes, oral medications (pills), and insulin (definition provided by diabetes.org).

So those are the differences between type one and type two. Gestational diabetes occurs during pregnancy but goes away after you’ve given birth but you are at a higher risk for getting type two diabetes. So, NO, I did not cause my diabetes. It just…happened. Unfortunately.

Symptoms of diabetes include excessive thirst, fatigue, hunger, sweating, nausea or vomiting, excessive urination, blurred vision, headache, sleepiness, weight loss, and fast heart rate. Before I was diagnosed I dealt with the excessive thirst, hunger, nausea, excessive urination, leg cramps, and weight loss. I had no idea what was going on until I google’d my symptoms and freaked out at what I was reading so I made a doctors appointment to get everything checked out. Of course they thought nothing was wrong with me until they did blood work. If you ever start to experience weird things happening to you, go to the doctor! It’s so so so important. If I hadn’t gone to the doctor I could have really done some damage to myself. There was a night I drank two sodas (excessive thirst) and ate a TON of carb filled Mexican food. Right after dinner, I didn’t feel well so I went and laid down and immediately went to sleep. Imagine if I never woke up due to high blood sugar? It’s a scary thought. I can only imagine what my blood sugar was that night.

Now I want to go over why it’s so important for me to stay on top of my diabetes during pregnancy. Sometimes I feel as if I can’t enjoy my pregnancy as much as a “normal” woman because I spend a lot of time stressing out over my blood sugars and worrying if I’m hurting my baby or not.

Some of the possible risks to the mother and baby if blood glucose levels are too high during pregnancy are:

Risks for the baby
Premature delivery
Miscarriage
Birth defects (not usually a risk for women with gestational diabetes)
Macrosomia (having a large baby)
Low blood glucose at birth (hypoglycemia)
Prolonged jaundice (yellowing of the skin)
Respiratory distress syndrome (difficulty breathing)

Risks for the mother:

Worsening of diabetic eye problems
Worsening of diabetic kidney problems
Infections of the urinary bladder and vaginal area
Preeclampsia (high blood pressure usually with protein in the urine)
Difficult delivery or cesarean section

(info provided by diabetes.org)

So in order for me to avoid these issues, I have to have an A1C under 6 (from what my doctor told me). Some doctors allow their patients to begin trying if they’re A1C is in the low 6’s. Basically an A1C is a number that tells doctors what your average blood sugar is. Before I got pregnant, I was able to get my A1C down to 5.1. It was really tough, but worth it. As my pregnancy progresses, I will need more insulin because my body will be more resistant. I’ve already increased my doses for meals and I will have to increase more as time goes on. It might sound easy to some but it’s hard work! And frustrating. I might have calculated everything perfectly but still end up with a blood sugar of 130 an hour or two after dinner when I expected it to be lower. Anyways, I just felt like doing this post so maybe whoever reading this can learn something new! I’ve learned so much in the past two years of being diabetic but I feel like I’m still learning each day about this disease, especially with this pregnancy. And remember, if you’re ever experiencing weird stuff happening to you or your body, don’t be afraid to seek help! 🙂

24 weeks and 3 days.

Okay guys I am officially BORED out of my mind being at home. Three more months of this?! What the heck am I going to do? Holy guacamole. Today is a rainy day so I did not want to leave my house and drive with all the crazies. I swear people in California don’t know how to drive as soon as water touches the ground. I am currently listening to my Ashanti Pandora radio station and typing this (duh). I was playing with my dog a little bit ago but I can only throw a toy around for so long before I get bored of doing it. I feel bad, maybe I’ll make Jesse go for a rain walk later on when he gets home so Wilson can get out of the house. I’m sure Jesse would love that idea as I am usually the one who would say no to that because I hate the cold lol. The things I do when I’m bored and stuck at home.

I’m starting to pop for sure. I feel huge today. My back pain is actually a lot better this week than last. I have only experienced the sciatica pain but no lower back pain, thank goodness! That hurt the most for sure. We finally put the baby’s crib together last night! It’s so cute, I can’t wait until the dresser comes tomorrow. We still need to clean the room up a bit but we’re making progress! Days like today just make me want to hold him already and kiss him and cuddle him. We can’t wait for him to arrive!

I messed up big last night with dinner! We got Mexican food and I usually eat tacos because they’re easy to carb count (and delicious of course) but I splurged and got a burrito last night! The burrito was amazing but my number went through the roof (above 200) and I gave a few corrections to try and bring it down. I cannot believe I did that to myself! No burritos for the remainder of this pregnancy, I promise. Foods I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t enjoy anymore are pancakes, pizza, and now burritos lol. I’m sure there’s more but I can’t seem to think right now. I actually got a call from my diabetes nurse today checking up on me. I told her about the burrito incident but I’m wondering if she looked up my numbers through my Dexcom and saw for herself and that’s why she called? Hmmm. It’s okay though. Today I started to track my meals and numbers like I did before I was pregnant. I found my old Food Diary that I ordered off Etsy over a year ago (designed for diabetics) and it’s been so helpful already today! It will really come in handy when I see the doctors next because they always try and ask me, “So on the 2nd your number was 150, what did you eat? Did you correct?” and I’m always like, uhhhh what day was that again??? So this will help tremendously with that I think!

I’m in a good mood today, despite being super bored at home. I’ve started reading a book I found that I never finished and I also got so bored that I did my makeup and hair for absolutely no reason! I’m still in my pajamas, haha. Anyways, I plan on getting my hair done this week! I actually can’t stand it right now and I need something new so I’m waiting until I get paid to make an appointment. I mean, I could actually just make an appointment now but I hate talking on the phone. Am I weird for that? I would much rather go in somewhere to talk to someone rather than speak to them on the phone in case I can’t understand them or something. Well, Jesse just got home and I’ve been craving human interaction all day so it’s time to go bug him!

15 weeks and 6 days.

I write pretty sporadically on this blog. Especially since I’ll be 16 weeks tomorrow, lol. This past week has brought me a bigger bloated belly and a couple days of dull nausea followed by pure exhaustion. It has only happened a couple of times, thankfully. I feel like work has been pretty cray lately (physically and emotionally) so I’ve been really tired by the time I’m off. I could not wait to have today off to finally relax my mind and body a bit, even though I’ve been running around doing things.

This morning I had to go and do my second trimester blood tests to prepare for the ultrasound I’ll be having in December. After that I then went and did a little grocery shopping so I could make dinner tonight (yay for tacos!), came home to eat lunch, and then visited my nana in the hospital *insert sad face emoji here*. I hate hospitals. Before I became diabetic I actually wanted to have my baby at a birthing center and try to be natural as in no epidural no nothing! I didn’t want to be hooked up to machines at all. If you’ve seen the documentary “The Business of Being Born” then you’d probably have second thoughts about hospitals, too. I’m totally not hating on women who prefer hospital births or have/prefer c-sections either. But if you haven’t seen that documentary then I think you should! It’s pretty interesting. Also, I am aware that shit happens and I really don’t think trying to plan how you’re going to give birth is the smartest idea because then if things don’t go your way you can end up being a crazy nervous wreck. That’s just my take on it, advice from someone who’s never gone through this before so I’m pretty much just talking out of my ass lol.

Anyways, back to my pregnancy and diabetes to conclude this post (I’m currently catching up on Riverdale so my attention is more focused on that at the moment, sorry bout it). I’m getting more excited about having a baby. It’s pretty scary when you’re considered high risk so I’m always a little nervous about everything. I’m hoping I’ll find out the sex on the 20th. I know a lot of women get the early ultrasound and pay extra for it but I have doctor appointments every 3 weeks! I get ultrasounds every time so I’m just going to wait until that appointment to find out. I guess that’s one cool thing about being high risk, lots and lots of ultrasounds of little one 🙂 Diabetes is not kicking my ass this week! I’ve had amazing nights of sleep with no interruptions! My blood sugar stays steady around 70-90 all night. During the day it’s also pretty good. I will have lows at work sometimes if I wait too long to take my break, so those are always important to take in my case. My snacks always include fruit (an apple or a cutie) and something else. Sometimes it’s a piece of pepper jack string cheese or a small bag (15g) of pretzels. With Halloween I had a bit too much candy but I try to keep it in moderation. I’m pretty happy with how my health has been but I know it’ll change up on me again so I just have to watch out for that. Well, I hope I’ll be able to write a bit sooner in my 16 weeks!

 

 

Family.

I was able to spend time with some family today that I don’t get to see often. Unfortunately we were brought together due to a death in the family. My uncle passed away last night. To be honest, I didn’t see him very often but of course I loved him. I always remember him being a quiet but very sweet man. I saw him a few weeks ago and he couldn’t talk but when he saw me he got this big smile on his face and put his arm out to hug me. I can’t help but feel so sad for my aunt during this time. I’m so glad he’s not suffering anymore, but I know this will be so hard for her. To be with someone since you were 17 years old and having them as your best friend and partner in life and then losing them seems…..more awful than I can even put into words. I’ve been with my boyfriend since I was 17 and I just couldn’t imagine the heartache that would bring me if I were to lose him. My best friend. I love my aunt so much. She’s one of the best people I have in my life. The most supportive and understanding person. You could tell her anything about yourself and she would never judge you. And not to mention she gives the best back scratches.

Being around my cousins today just made my day honestly. It sucks that we were brought together today because of something sad, but I also think it’s special because even if we don’t see each other at all, we’re able to come together as a family and be there for each other. I love all of my cousins. Playing with the little ones was so fun, and tiring. Maybe because i’m pregnant and tired, but most likely because i’m lazy lol. I loved seeing my second cousins who are the oldest. They are gooorgeouss and so smart and ugh, I wish I had spent more time with them. That’s the shitty part about living kinda far. I mean, it’s really only a couple of hours but when you’re a teenager you don’t always think about seeing your family who lives far from you. Now that i’m older I wish things were different.

My family is kind of a big ball of…a somewhat mess. I won’t go into full detail but things aren’t always easy for everyone. I’m sure every family has their drama and issues but stubbornness definitely runs deep into my family. Once you piss someone off, you could be cut off for life. Personally, I’m not that way. At least I try not to be, but if someone wants to cut me out, I’m not one to chase after them either. If you hurt me bad enough and aren’t willing to communicate to resolve the problem then I’ll stay gone. Is that bad? I don’t know, but that’s just how I deal with that kind of situation.

Anyways, I am 10 weeks and 2 days today. The only symptoms so far are gas (TMI, sorry, but everything seems to make me fart. lol), and the nausea is coming back but only at certain times so it’s not an all day thing like it was before. I can’t really think of anything else at the moment. I have another doctor appointment on Wednesday so I can’t wait to see my little one bigger and hopefully measuring perfectly.

I’ll update when I can!

 

Vegan Chili.

I thought I’d post a recipe since I actually cooked today! Before being pregnant, I cooked almost every single night. Cooking is like my go-to therapy and I just love creating yummy dishes or recreating recipes I find on good old Pinterest.

Anyways, the idea of Chili came from my boyfriend eating a hotdog with chili for dinner the other night and I tried a bite of the Chili and was like, hmmmmmm ok ok I can dig this! Usually I’m not a big Chili fan so I don’t make it often.

THE RECIPE (that I made up on my own because Pinterest failed me and nothing looked good to me on there)

  • 1 package of Boca’s Beefless Crumbles (or use 1 pound of Ground beef, or omit this entire ingredient)
  • 1/2 an Onion, white or yellow, chopped
  • 1/2 Green Bell Pepper, choppped
  • 1/2 Red Bell Pepper, chopped
  • 3 Garlic Cloves, minced
  • 2 tbsp Chili Powder
  • 1 tbsp Cumin
  • 1 tsp Oregano
  • 1/4 tsp Cayenne Pepper (or more if you like heat)
  • Salt
  • 1 4oz can diced Green Chili’s
  • 1 can Diced Tomatoes
  • 1 can Kidney Beans
  • 1 can Black Beans
  • 3/4 cup Frozen (or canned) Corn
  • 1 tbsp Tomato Paste
  • 2 cups of Water
  1. Heat some olive oil in a large pot on medium high heat, add your beefless crumbles or ground beef. Cook completely. If using the ground beef, make sure to drain. Place meat aside for later.
  2. Add more olive oil into your now empty pot and add your garlic and veggies. Sprinkle some salt and sauté until softened. Once softened, add your meat back into the pot. Add your spices + a bit more salt and stir to incorporate. Add your canned goods, corn, tomato paste, and 2 cups of Water.
  3. Bring to a boil then simmer for 40-60 minutes. Taste, add more salt if needed. Serve and Enjoy 🙂

I hope someone tries this recipe out because I personally thought it was packed with flavor and everything went so well together. If you don’t have any beefless meat or real meat on hand feel free to leave out that ingredient/step completely. I almost didn’t even use it but since it’s been in my freezer I decided to just use it up.

Use what you have on hand! If you don’t have black beans, use pinto! If you only have one bell pepper, just use that one. If you’re lucky enough to have a jalapeño on hand, mince that up really good and throw that in there as well! I served my chili with saltine crackers to be a bit more low in carb but obviously if you have the time to make corn bread, that would make this 10x better!

Insulin.

Ugh, the thing that keeps me alive but also makes my life really hard these days! I’m talking about insulin adjustments during my pregnancy. I have recently been having the worst nights sleeping lately because my Dexcom will go off multiple times alerting me that I am having a low blood sugar. Most of the time I don’t feel symptoms so I ignore it. I also doing something really terrible, I will put in a fake glucose reading just to keep it from going off. I know I know, thats really bad. Please don’t tell my doctor, lol. I will however wake up once I get symptoms: sweating, hunger, my brain feeling all weird and fuzzy. I keep snacks in my nightstand to help. Lots of little candies!

I started lowering my bed time insulin dose last week I believe. I started out with 11 units of Lantus pre pregnancy and now, tonight, I am taking 8 units before bed. After the past few days of still continuing to have lows, I decided to lower it another unit. I am not sure what took me so long? I feel like I should have lowered it another unit like, yesterday. Oh well. Let’s see how tonight goes.

Once I wake up from my phone going off a million times, I’ll lay in bed awake for about an hour until I can fall asleep again. And then I have to pee. And then I actually get that low my phone was telling me about so I have to force myself to eat a candy even though I’m too tired to actually chew (weird, I know). And then I have to pee again. Listen, I’m using this blog to track everything I am going through. Although I am extremely blessed I even get to experience pregnancy, I am also extremely tired of having diabetes. It sucks especially when I want to just eat 5 chocolate chip cookies as a snack. Or eat an entire pint of Talenti’s Vanilla and Caramel Swirl ice cream. Ugh, diabetes probs.

Also, update on the nausea and food aversions. They’re still here. Torturing me. The meds help with the nausea a bit but they don’t take the food aversions away. I can honestly only eat what I crave and I only crave things that I see other people eat or that I hear someone mention. Example: earlier today my mom mentioned sushi so I of course, HAD to have Japanese for lunch. Beef Teriyaki for the win!

I’m going to try to post once a week so I’ll get back to you once I’m 9 weeks!

7 Weeks and 6 Days.

Almost 8 weeks. 8. Freakin. Weeks.

It’s been tough, not gunna lie guys. This nausea is kicking my ass. I almost wish I could throw up to just get rid of it. Today I actually woke up quite fine and I had peppermint tea with my breakfast and didn’t have much nausea until after lunch. It has been downhill from there. I emailed my doctor yesterday and she got back to me today and told me she would prescribe me some meds to help so I’ll have to pick them up next week since work gets in the way of the times I’m available and the pharmacy is open :/ bummer. I want them asap.

Other symptoms are sense of smell. I can’t remember if I’ve already mentioned this before but I didn’t think I had a heightened sense of smell until I noticed my dogs breath suddenly smells like he ate a fresh pile of sh!t. I asked my boyfriend if he thinks his breath smells that bad and he told me it was just me *shrugs*. Also, doing the dishes is really hard for me to do if there’s any sort of smell. I’ve been trying to avoid cleaning them but so has my boyfriend so I end up getting stuck doing them anyways lol. My plan clearly doesn’t work.

Food. I have no real appetite unless I smell something really good that I have to have. I still eat of course. My dinners have been extremely carb heavy because it’s all I ever feel like eating. Mexican food, pasta, rice, etc. But I still manage to keep my numbers in check! So that’s good. I’ve recently had tests done and my A1C dropped even lower to 4.8! I really want to feel better so I can get back to cooking and eating better. Veggies just never sound good anymore. I’ve actually been loving fruit. I bought raspberries, blueberries, blackberries, wAtermelon, plums, and nectarines over the weekend! The berries are my fave. I make sure to eat them at certain times and obviously limit my portion to control my blood sugars.

Work seems to be kicking my butt. I’m usually exhausted after work and during work I feel like complete crap because of the nausea. I feel bad for anyone who asks how I’m doing because the answer is always the same. I also feel bad like I’m not doing the best that I can because of lack of energy and just feeling sick. I hate to complain all the time, I know a lot of other women have it 10x worse. But for me this is my struggle right now.

Anyways, I can only hope this icky stuff disappears soon! I’m looking forward to being happy and enjoying this pregnancy before I can’t see my feet anymore.

Liz

Blog Post #1

I think I’ll start this first blog post by introducing myself if you don’t already know who I am. You can call me Liz. I named my blog Liz with Type One because I am a Type One Diabetic! I’ve recently had my diaversary and I have had it for two years now. Being diagnosed was one of the worst things I’ve had to deal with on my own. I know my family supported me but I definitely had moments where I felt extremely alone and that nobody understood me, or tried to understand what I was going through. I try to think that diabetes doesn’t define me but it’s a major part of who I am now. People can think, “oh just eat better” “just work out more” “just do this or do that” and thats not really how it works. But anyways, I can get into diabetes more later in my posts but I’ll try to keep this somewhat short and simple.

I am 25 years old and am a fur mom to two animals. My dog, Wilson, and my cat, Moka. I couldn’t imagine my life without them. If you have animals, I’m sure you know the feeling. I have been with my boyfriend for 8 years and hoping for many more to come! He’s my bestie. We met in high school. Although our relationship wasn’t perfect in the beginning, I’d say we grew so much together and are nothing how we used to be. Thats also a good thing, a very good thing.

I’ve loved writing ever since I could remember. I have always had journals since I was a young girl. Looking back, they were super emo and probably every page said “I hate my life!” followed by more emo writings. I wrote in them mostly to let out anger or sadness. It wasn’t until a couple years ago I decided to get a journal that I would write positive things in. I felt that I was able to still let out any kind of sadness but I would write it in a way that wasn’t super depressing. Also, since I’m not a teenager anymore I think I’m probably less dramatic than before (but still a little dramatic).

I’m here to start this blog to document events in my life, to share my happiness, and to share things I love and hopefully connect with others who love the same things! Hopefully this first post wasn’t a complete mess. I feel like I have so much to say sometimes that I bounce off of so many topics! I tried keeping this one simple.

Until Next Time,

Liz