30 weeks and 4 days.

Well today was one of those weird lazy but somewhat busy days. I woke up around 5AM because what’s sleep? I went on my phone for a bit but then I eventually turned the TV on and watched the news. Jesse had to wake up early for work today anyways so he eventually got up and started to get ready. I think I passed out around 6 or 6:30 and then didn’t wake up again until 9. I didn’t have any plans for the day but wanted to make a trip to Trader Joe’s so I ended up taking Wilson with me around 1. Have you guys heard of that seasoning blend called Everything but the Bagel? I hear so many people rave about it online so I decided to give it a try. I also heard about some Chickenless Orange Chicken that I wanted to try but I had no luck and they didn’t have any so I got the regular Orange Chicken to try out for dinner tonight. Lately I just haven’t been in the mood to eat or cook meat so we’ll see how this regular orange chicken turns out. I also got some cauliflower pizza crust that I’m excited to try for dinner tomorrow night. I plan on just making a cheese, olive, and pepperoni pizza and hopefully that turns out alright; I wanted a pizza that was relatively low carb and I’ve been wanting to try cauliflower crust pizza for a while now.

Baby moves around a lot still. He was pretty chill earlier but I got a coffee from Starbucks (tall iced coffee unsweetened with soy milk 😉 ) and that eventually kicked in and got him to move around more haha. I was just thinking earlier how I never drank coffee but now that I’m pregnant I see myself wanting it more. Why is that? So weird. I know I’m allowed to have about a cup or so a day, but I only have it every once in a while so I think it’s okay. Plus I always get a size tall, never more than that so I assume there isn’t much coffee in there anyways. The only symptoms I’ve had this past week are more headaches. Yesterday I woke up with one and it lasted all day long, which made me super lazy and just not feel well. I took a nap around 3pm and didn’t wake up until around 5. I know I mentioned being emotional in one of my last posts, which is still true to this week as well. I’m just one big ball of sensitivity! Help! Someone hold me and tell me I’m pretty (kidding).

Diabetes wise, I feel so alone. Being sick really messed me up and set me back, but I feel like I’m getting closer to my goals of having everything under control. I know I could email my doctors but to me there’s no point in doing that because only I know my body and their suggestions haven’t really worked much in the past so I figured I’d just figure it all out on my own. I’m still dealing with some high blood sugars but they haven’t been as bad the past couple of days. I’m trying to take things slow when adjusting insulin so I don’t run into any hypo’s again since that scared the crap out of me.

Welp, my baby shower is almost here! I’m getting excited and stressed out about it. I don’t know why I stress over it but I do. I shouldn’t be since I’m not the one decorating or setting things up but I’ve still been included in the decisions. I’m getting my hair done on Thursday and I also get my dress delivered on Thursday too and I’m praying my hair turns out good and my dress looks good on me. I’m usually not a dress person and I don’t like wearing dresses when I’m pale but we’re just going to roll with it. Hopefully it fits, too! If this dress doesn’t work out then I’m back to square one with deciding on what I’m going to wear. I know, such first world problems.

Anyways, I can’t think of anything else that’s new that has happened within the past week! It’s been pretty chill. We did get a new camera because I wanted a nice camera to take pictures of little one with once he’s here. I still have an iPhone 6 which doesn’t always have the best camera quality. The camera we got is nice because it has WiFi so all the photo’s I take I can send to my phone! I love it. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me because I’m meeting up with a few different people throughout the day. Don’t be fooled though, I’m really not that important and because I like to consider myself quite an introvert I already know I’m going to be wiped out after and will want to come home and decompress for like, a day and half haha.

And here’s a cute picture of my dog because why not? Don’t you just want to squeeze his cute face and give him all the kisses? No? Just me? 😂

Family.

I was able to spend time with some family today that I don’t get to see often. Unfortunately we were brought together due to a death in the family. My uncle passed away last night. To be honest, I didn’t see him very often but of course I loved him. I always remember him being a quiet but very sweet man. I saw him a few weeks ago and he couldn’t talk but when he saw me he got this big smile on his face and put his arm out to hug me. I can’t help but feel so sad for my aunt during this time. I’m so glad he’s not suffering anymore, but I know this will be so hard for her. To be with someone since you were 17 years old and having them as your best friend and partner in life and then losing them seems…..more awful than I can even put into words. I’ve been with my boyfriend since I was 17 and I just couldn’t imagine the heartache that would bring me if I were to lose him. My best friend. I love my aunt so much. She’s one of the best people I have in my life. The most supportive and understanding person. You could tell her anything about yourself and she would never judge you. And not to mention she gives the best back scratches.

Being around my cousins today just made my day honestly. It sucks that we were brought together today because of something sad, but I also think it’s special because even if we don’t see each other at all, we’re able to come together as a family and be there for each other. I love all of my cousins. Playing with the little ones was so fun, and tiring. Maybe because i’m pregnant and tired, but most likely because i’m lazy lol. I loved seeing my second cousins who are the oldest. They are gooorgeouss and so smart and ugh, I wish I had spent more time with them. That’s the shitty part about living kinda far. I mean, it’s really only a couple of hours but when you’re a teenager you don’t always think about seeing your family who lives far from you. Now that i’m older I wish things were different.

My family is kind of a big ball of…a somewhat mess. I won’t go into full detail but things aren’t always easy for everyone. I’m sure every family has their drama and issues but stubbornness definitely runs deep into my family. Once you piss someone off, you could be cut off for life. Personally, I’m not that way. At least I try not to be, but if someone wants to cut me out, I’m not one to chase after them either. If you hurt me bad enough and aren’t willing to communicate to resolve the problem then I’ll stay gone. Is that bad? I don’t know, but that’s just how I deal with that kind of situation.

Anyways, I am 10 weeks and 2 days today. The only symptoms so far are gas (TMI, sorry, but everything seems to make me fart. lol), and the nausea is coming back but only at certain times so it’s not an all day thing like it was before. I can’t really think of anything else at the moment. I have another doctor appointment on Wednesday so I can’t wait to see my little one bigger and hopefully measuring perfectly.

I’ll update when I can!

 

Vegan Chili.

I thought I’d post a recipe since I actually cooked today! Before being pregnant, I cooked almost every single night. Cooking is like my go-to therapy and I just love creating yummy dishes or recreating recipes I find on good old Pinterest.

Anyways, the idea of Chili came from my boyfriend eating a hotdog with chili for dinner the other night and I tried a bite of the Chili and was like, hmmmmmm ok ok I can dig this! Usually I’m not a big Chili fan so I don’t make it often.

THE RECIPE (that I made up on my own because Pinterest failed me and nothing looked good to me on there)

  • 1 package of Boca’s Beefless Crumbles (or use 1 pound of Ground beef, or omit this entire ingredient)
  • 1/2 an Onion, white or yellow, chopped
  • 1/2 Green Bell Pepper, choppped
  • 1/2 Red Bell Pepper, chopped
  • 3 Garlic Cloves, minced
  • 2 tbsp Chili Powder
  • 1 tbsp Cumin
  • 1 tsp Oregano
  • 1/4 tsp Cayenne Pepper (or more if you like heat)
  • Salt
  • 1 4oz can diced Green Chili’s
  • 1 can Diced Tomatoes
  • 1 can Kidney Beans
  • 1 can Black Beans
  • 3/4 cup Frozen (or canned) Corn
  • 1 tbsp Tomato Paste
  • 2 cups of Water
  1. Heat some olive oil in a large pot on medium high heat, add your beefless crumbles or ground beef. Cook completely. If using the ground beef, make sure to drain. Place meat aside for later.
  2. Add more olive oil into your now empty pot and add your garlic and veggies. Sprinkle some salt and sauté until softened. Once softened, add your meat back into the pot. Add your spices + a bit more salt and stir to incorporate. Add your canned goods, corn, tomato paste, and 2 cups of Water.
  3. Bring to a boil then simmer for 40-60 minutes. Taste, add more salt if needed. Serve and Enjoy 🙂

I hope someone tries this recipe out because I personally thought it was packed with flavor and everything went so well together. If you don’t have any beefless meat or real meat on hand feel free to leave out that ingredient/step completely. I almost didn’t even use it but since it’s been in my freezer I decided to just use it up.

Use what you have on hand! If you don’t have black beans, use pinto! If you only have one bell pepper, just use that one. If you’re lucky enough to have a jalapeño on hand, mince that up really good and throw that in there as well! I served my chili with saltine crackers to be a bit more low in carb but obviously if you have the time to make corn bread, that would make this 10x better!