Grilled Chili Lime Chicken with Cilantro Lime Rice and Roasted Veggies

What a mouthful of a recipe name, am I right? I’ve found all of these recipes on Pinterest (what don’t I find on there??) and I’ll link them all below if you’d like to go to their actual page! This combo of a meal is so damn good you’ll be wanting more, and if you don’t then you’re cray cray! Here are the recipes…

This recipe was to be made on the stove but I made mine in my rice cooker so I’ll share how I did it. Link for recipe is right here.

Rice Cooker Method for Cilantro Lime Rice


  • 1 1/2 cups Basmati Rice
  • 2 tbsp Butter
  • 2 1/2-3 cups Chicken Broth
  • 1/4 cup Cilantro, chopped
  • 1 Lime, zested and juiced
  • 1/2 tsp Salt
  • 1/2 tsp Cumin

Stir it all together in your rice cooker and start cookin’! Should take about 20 minutes.

Chili Lime Chicken     recipe can be found right here.


  • 1 lb Chicken Breasts, (I used chicken tenders because that’s what I had on hand)
  • 2 tbsp Lime Juice
  • Zest of 1 Lime
  • 3 Garlic Cloves, minced
  • 1/4 cup Cilantro, minced
  • 4 tbsp Oil (I used canola)
  • 1 tbsp Brown Sugar
  • 2 tsp Chili Powder
  • 1/2 tsp Cumin
  • 1 tsp Salt
  • 1/2 tsp Pepper

I let my chicken marinate with all the ingredients for an hour or so and I brought it to room temp before grilling. If you’re not grilling then you can either bake them in the oven or cook them on your stovetop! I’m not a magician when it comes to cooking them so I’d look up for how long in the oven…I’m thinking 350 for 20 minutes or so? And if I made it on the stove I might cook them for 4-5 minutes on each side depending on how thick the chicken is. Use a meat thermometer!! Best thing Jesse ever bought!

Roasted Veggies

I made these myself without using a recipe because I loooove roasted vegetables and they’re so freaking easy!


  • 1 Red Bell Pepper, sliced
  • 1 Green Bell pepper, sliced
  • 1/2 Red Onion, sliced
  • Cherry Tomatoes, left whole…not sliced! *I didn’t measure out how many, I just used however many I wanted
  • Mushrooms, sliced *I didn’t measure out how many, I just used however many I wanted
  • Chili Powder
  • Paprika
  • Cumin
  • Salt & Pepper
  • Onion Powder
  • Garlic Powder
  • Oregano
  • Oil

This is probably so not professional but who’s ever professional in their own kitchen?? I didn’t measure out any of the spices used. I just put however much I wanted. I went a little heavier with the chili powder than the others, though. I put some oil over the veggies after I seasoned them and mixed it all together with my hands to make sure everything was evenly coated. I then roasted them at 400 for 20 minutes. The tomatoes turn out sooooo good that way and I highly recommend cooking them like that!

Happy eating 🙂



What I Ate Today + How Diabetes Ruined It

So I thought it would be fun to do a little “what I eat in a day” post since I always love watching these on YouTube! My day started out really well but somewhat went downhill throughout the day. I went to the gym around 7 and decided to do some cardio. Ugh, I hate cardio…remind me to never do that again. Once I got home I had some egg whites with sautéed mushrooms and a piece of whole grain toast. I usually never have toast these days (or any other carb) but I was starving as soon as I woke up so I wanted to make sure I filled myself up so that I could last until lunch to eat again.

After showering and getting ready I decided to run a few errands. While I was at my last store, my Dexcom started going off telling me I was having a low. As I was in the checkout I could really start to feel the low hitting me. I was getting sweaty, a little shaky, and couldn’t really focus on anything. I decided to grab a small trail mix bag that was at the checkout. When I left and got into my car I had my juice box and the bag of trail mix. So that threw off my day a little since I normally wouldn’t have planned to eat/drink those things. This happened right around the time I would normally have lunch so I was already feeling quite hungry and there’s an In n Out really close to where I was shopping. I debated about going there or not in my head. I knew I had a salad waiting for me leftover from the night before. I knew I should have picked that but the smell of that delicious In N Out was hard to pass by. So I got it. Cheeseburger protein style, animal style with animal style fries. Was it delicious? Duh. Do I regret it? Not really…but it did make me feel bad for a little bit because I really don’t want to fall off of this health train I’ve been riding.

After eating lunch I opened my refrigerator and saw the leftover Daiya cheesecake that I had last night (I’ve been wanting to try this for forever so I finally caved and bought it! Don’t judge!) and took a few bites. Later on in the day I also had a couple handfuls of some goldfish and a Reece’s peanut butter cup. UGH. Also not planned in my day usually…

For dinner I stuck to my guns a little bit. I made sure to eat the salad that I was originally going to have at lunch and put my chicken into it. I roasted some green beans (garlic, s&p, oil-350 degrees for 17-20 min), and made awful mashed potatoes! Just kidding, they weren’t awful but I couldn’t’ find the recipe I usually go off of so I kind of made my own and they weren’t really my favorite. I’m also not a big mashed potato fan anyways but Jesse requested it. I’m completely stuffed after dinner and have no intentions of eating for the rest of the night.

A lot of people don’t really understand what diabetics have to go through on a daily basis. Especially when trying to lose weight. Sometimes a low happens unexpectedly and if it keeps going lower and lower then we get so hungry and for some of us, food is hard to turn down. A juice box is always recommended but that was hard for me today. I’m sure I would have been fine with just juice but I ended up eating the trail mix anyways just to be safe.

I haven’t input my dinner info or most of the snacks I ate today because I already know I went over my calories and carbs for the day. Sometimes I’m not sure if MyFitnessPal is useful or actually bad for your mental health and losing weight. I’ll feel like a failure if I’m not eating perfect enough and I already have to look at my Dexcom app and see my blood sugars throughout the day and feel like a failure. With the two apps combined and me failing at everything today, it kind of sucks. I’ll just shoot for a better day tomorrow.

Being a Mom is Hard.

It is. For me at least. I wasn’t born naturally good with children. I used to grow up not wanting kids at all! They freaked me out. They annoyed me. They were exhausting to be around. Just wasn’t for me. Until I got baby fever and it never went away so I wanted to have my own. Now all I want is a big family to love on. But besides that…what I’m trying to say is I’m kind of on a struggle bus lately.

I constantly feel like I’m a shit parent compared to other moms out there. I know everyone puts on their best image on social media but holy shit is it exhausting to look at sometimes. I’m currently dealing with a baby who refuses to sleep in his crib. He was able to sleep during his naps in there but now I can’t even do that! We spent a week at my parents house while we renovated our bathroom and I think that kind of messed up his routine because he slept in the bed due to not having his crib. Anyways, I’m trying to train him to sleep in his crib for bedtime and boy is it a freaking struggle. Cry it out method? Who invented that because it’s awful! Last night I went in first after 20 min of him crying, then 30, then another 30, and then after another 10 minutes I said forget it and brought him into the bed. How am I supposed to get sleep? How is he supposed to get sleep? It was the third day in a row doing that and I just didn’t see any improvement so I stopped it. But now when it’s bedtime I’m robbed of my alone time because I have to stay in the bed while he’s sleeping. In the dark. Can’t watch tv or read a book, I’m stuck on my phone mindlessly scrolling through social media apps. Bored while Jesse plays his video game downstairs. We don’t get to spend time together. We used to just leave pillows all around Levi, and we still do, but last week the unthinkable happened. Poor Levi fell off the bed (which is why I have to be with him now when we put him down). It obviously scared us and was a wake up call and that’s why we tried crib training him but, excuse my language, what the fuck?! My son must be extremely hard headed and stubborn because he won’t stop crying if he’s in there. I’ve invested in a rocking chair praying that once it arrives it’ll be the answer to our prayers. I didn’t want to admit that our son fell off the bed because of our stupidity but it happened and I feel like a shitty ass parent because of it. Also, I think because I’m now with Levi all the time and put him down for naps during the day, he prefers me over his dad when it comes to going to bed. He’ll literally cry and say “mama” when he’s with his dad and will stop as soon as I walk in. I really love that he loves me but I need him to want his dad too ya know? I’m sure some moms out there think I’m crazy for not appreciating the love and neediness from my child but maybe you don’t get it. I LOVE that he wants me but I’m the kind of person who also loves my alone time and space and I think all mothers shouldn’t be afraid to express that. The whole, “I let him do xyz because one day he’ll grow out of it and not want me anymore,” is insane to me. I love getting stuff done while Levi naps. It’s the best! I’ll workout, or clean, or watch my favorite show. I refuse to be a prisoner and stay upstairs in my bed just laying there not doing anything because he won’t go in his crib. I mean, I’m literally doing it right this second but I can’t live like this forever! I can feel the judgy mom eyes already for wanting my own time for myself….

Another thing I feel shitty about is how I feed my son. So I follow some IG accounts that talk about healthy foods and so on and so on. I love those accounts but I can feel them making me feel guilty when I don’t feed my son an entirely balanced meal. I legit feel guilty when I feed him a pb&j with an applesauce squeeze pouch. But sometimes I just don’t have much on hand! Or sometimes the leftovers I have he won’t eat! Or sometimes I don’t have enough time because he’s already crying and upset and I just want to hurry up and feed him! My peanut butter is natural but my jelly isn’t and I feel awful that I’m feeding him jelly that probably doesn’t have the purest of ingredients. Or how about the only vegetable I’ve been able to get him to eat is broccoli but I don’t cook that every day so he still probably isn’t getting a bunch of veggies because he won’t eat the other ones. I try really hard to feed him well balanced meals but sometimes I suck and when I suck I feel so shitty about it.

The dentist is another topic. He’s going to be 14 months old and we still haven’t taken him. He actually doesn’t have dental insurance and I wasn’t even aware that I should take him to the dentist before a year old. My doctor never even mentioned the dentist at his last appointment! He won’t let me brush his teeth so I feel like I’m the shittiest parent ever because what if I’m fucking up his teeth right now by not brushing them?? He needs to go to the dentist but I need to make the appointment. I need to adult and I’m scared of adulting sometimes. Wow. What a mom I am, right?

I’m friends with some moms that seem to just know everything and do everything perfectly. They’re naturals. They do research, they read books, they’re perfect! I just feel like the worst lately and I don’t know what to do about it. It’s probably just a funk. I hate asking for advice because I’m just one of those people who would rather figure it out on my own I guess…even though that’s probably what I shouldn’t do. For the crib situation, Jesse brought up bringing the crib into our room and putting him in there but I’m afraid of it not working or if it did work then we’ll have to do the whole training again once he’s in his own room so I just don’t know how that’ll work out. As for the food problem, I think I need to let it go. Jesse makes fun of me sometimes about how anal I can be about nutrition but I just want the best for my kid and I want him to haves good diet not filled with processed crap. And the dentist situation…I just need to make the appointment and get help on how to brush my sons teeth without him pursing his lips together and moving his head away from me *shrugs*. See, I got some of this figured out. But being a mom is still hard.

Quick Zoodle Recipe

Zoodles are boring, let’s be real here. But I bought a huge bag of zucchini at Costco recently because I was having zucchini in my breakfast scramble. I realized quickly that there was no way I was going to go through this whole bag even if I ate the same thing every day so I had to think of other ways to eat them! I made this recipe yesterday and had it again today because I really thought it made the dish taste light and fresh but still flavorful!


  • 1 tbsp red onion, finely diced
  • 1 garlic clove, diced
  • 2 Zucchini, spiraled into noodles
  • 5 cherry tomatoes, quartered
  • 1/2 tsp Italian Seasoning
  • 1 tsp olive oil
  • Parmesan cheese
  • Salt and Pepper
  1. Heat your pan on medium heat and add cooking spray to the bottom. I used coconut oil spray but do whatever works for you. (No spray? Just use regular oil)
  2. Stir in the onion and garlic and sauté for a couple minutes, then add the tomatoes and sauté another 2-3 minutes.
  3. Add your zucchini noodles, Italian seasoning, and about 1 tsp of olive oil and sauté for a few minutes to incorporate the ingredients and soften the zucchini a bit.
  4. Once finished add salt and pepper to your liking and however much parm you’d like!

* So you might be wondering why I add olive oil with the zoodles and start with coconut oil spray in the beginning. I don’t have an answer for this because I just do what I want when I want because it’s my kitchen, my recipe bish!

Lol, in all honestly I just like the way the olive oil tastes with the zoodles and Italian seasoning more than coconut oil but I start with the spray because I don’t want too much oil. Like, I don’t want my whole lunch to taste like olive oil.

Anyways, hope this inspires someone out there whose bored with the zoodz and is tired of just using marinara sauce on them!

Enjoy 🙂

Working On Myself, For Myself

So as of late I’ve fallen back into bad eating habits and hating the way I look. I let stress get the best of me and when my confidence is low I don’t want to be around anyone or do anything. Laying in bed just sounds nice 24/7. I don’t actually get the chance to lay in bed due to having a child to take care of, but I fantasize about it haha.

With all of that being said, it’s time to get back to work. I haven’t been to the gym in about 3 weeks but I have done workouts at home that last between 30-40 minutes and they are really good workouts so I’m proud of myself about those. It’s Monday and I’ve woken up with cramps and a headache and a bloated stomach (hi, mother nature!) so I didn’t go to the gym this morning but I do plan on going for a nice walk with Levi. I didn’t eat so health conscious over the weekend because it was mine and Jesse’s 10 year anniversary (!!!) so good food was a must. Anyways, I really want to try eliminating all of the crap out of my diet. Last week I ate the same breakfast almost every day which was 2 scrambled eggs (one whole, one egg white) and sautéed zucchini and mushrooms. I plugged it all into MyFitnessPal to keep track of the carb intake. For my lunches, they varied between a low carb pita pizza, salad, and cauliflower fried “rice” (omg you must try!). For my dinners I just tried to keep the carb choices smart by having brown rice or sweet potatoes instead of white rice and white potatoes and I made sure my portions were controlled. I was so happy with all of my choices last week so I’m really motivated to do them all over again this week.

One thing I’m trying to work on for myself is realizing that food is for fuel. My hairdresser said those words to me on Saturday and that’s exactly what I needed to hear. All the extra processed food is really just…extra. Unnecessary. Will I still eat it? Yes, of course because I’m a total foodie, but it’ll just be controlled. I have a tendency to rely on food for comfort when I’m stressed, sad, or not feeling well. Not going to lie I totally had a reeces peanut butter cup along with my lunch because I was craving chocolate. It was the only candy I bought at the store and it was for emergencies (lol) only. I think being crampy and bloated and feeling blah is an emergency. Also, I’m trying to stop eating when I’m genuinely full. That’s also an issue of mine. I tend to eat until I’m stuffed sometimes because I don’t want to waste food or because it’s SO good I can’t stop. I think it’s important to have a good relationship with food and I don’t have one and I never did growing up so it’s a habit that will be hard to break but I’m determined.

I figure if I stick with this for at LEAST a month it’ll become a new habit which will in turn become a new routine and a new lifestyle for me. I don’t like the weight I’m at right now and I hate the scale to be honest but I think when first trying to lose weight it is important to see where you’re starting at so you can make sure your new diet is actually helping you lost weight along with working out. In my opinion, anyways.

This morning I skipped breakfast because of the bloat and just not being hungry so for lunch I made a nice filling salad. For anyone who’s uninspired when it comes to salads I really recommend going to Costco and getting those premade salad mixes, or your regular grocery store. I got the Mediterranean salad mix and the bag is huge and has already lasted me 3 different meals (having it for lunch on 3 different days). To bulk my salad up I’ll add whatever veggies I like; cucumbers, tomatoes, carrots, avocado, radishes, and red/green onions are all good! Sometimes the salads will come with some great add ins like nuts or cheese (which I think is good in moderation!). For proteins I’ll use tuna salad, a Boca burger patty, egg salad, or leftover meat from the dinner before. I do realize having tuna salad or egg salad might not be the healthiest because of the mayo that’s mixed in but I usually don’t add too much and I like the flavor so I do what I want! Having a food scale and tracking everything on MyFitnessPal is super helpful in the beginning to make sure you’re in a caloric deficit for weight loss. I highly recommend doing that if you’re just starting out with any kind of diet change and are wanting to lose/gain weight.


13 Months Old

Okay so he’ll be 13 months old in a couple of days but it’s been a while since I’ve given an update on my little chunk and I think it’s time to give one! We’ve been battling a lot of sickness over here and it’s terrible. It started off with Levi teething pretty bad but then he got a fever that the doctor warned us he might get exactly 2 weeks after his mmr shot. It lasted 72 hours and it was AWFUL. It’s so heartbreaking seeing your child in pain or not feeling well and there’s not much to do to help. He just got a whole bunch of Tylenol! It really helped us a lot. Then after the fever he had a small rash that lasted 2 days that I guess is also normal *shrugs*. We’re having our bathroom redone at our house so during most of this we were at my parents house. We’re still here actually..

After Levi started to feel better, Jesse came down with a cold and he mostly just had a cough and stuffy nose. Well on Saturday I woke up not feeling 100% and by the end of the day I was a zombie. I probably had the worst sleep in my life that night. My throat hurt so bad that I couldn’t drink water but yet my mouth was so dry because I couldn’t breathe out of my nose. It was such a shitty night. Fast forward to today and I’m fever and sore throat free but have a cough and stuffy nose. I’ve gone through more tissues than ever. Gross, I know.

Anyways, our bathroom should be done today or tomorrow. Hoping for today because it would be nice to go back home. I’m thankful to my parents for letting us stay here but I miss my routine at my house and being in my own space, as I’m sure anyone could understand. My blood sugars have been off the wall these past two weeks. Right before coming here my blood sugars were amazing! Like, holy hell I was on top of the world with amazing blood sugars! Now I’m lucky if I get under 200. It could be the cold I have, or the stress I’m feeling that is affecting them so greatly but it’s really making me feel down. Nobody quite understands it unless you’re also a diabetic. I’ll give myself enough insulin to make me have a low and it won’t hardly do a thing to my sugars. It’s so wild to me. So I really want to go home to see if they’ll go back to normal with my regular routine or if I have to see my Endocrinologist to have her help me out because this isn’t good. The more unstable I am with my blood sugars the more damage is done inside my body and that’s kind of scary if you ask me.

On to the chunkster…we’re still waiting for him to walk! I have a feeling he’ll walk around 15 months. It’s almost as if he’s scared or nervous to walk. He’s taken a few steps on his own when I let go of his hands but then he cries. He’s just too comfortable crawling around and cruising along the furniture! Silly boy. Im not too worried about him not walking right now to be honest. I don’t mind it. It’s actually hard for me to imagine a little person just walking around the house being all grown up so I guess the reason I’m OK with him not walking is because it means he’s still my little baby. Being home all the time has definitely made me more attached. We have a great nap routine these days and I love being with him. I wish I was able to stay home with him his entire first year. I feel like going back to work would actually be way easier now than before. I don’t know how I did it to be honest. He doesn’t wake up in the middle of the night anymore. No bottles. Eats like a champ for the most part. He now knows “fan” so when you ask him where the fan is he points up at the one on the ceiling. I was wearing a shirt that had Mommy Shark on it and I asked him where Mommy Shark was and he pointed to it. He’s so smart! He’s also super funny and he knows it. We finally cut his hair ourselves. Jesse didn’t like how it looked so he shaved the back of it and it looks so much better. Still could be improved but hey, it works! Levi cries when he gets his hair done so it’s gotta be fast.

I guess the post was more about me than I planned on it being but I’ve just been going through a lot mentally. I haven’t been to the gym in the past week and a half due to me being at my parents house so I really need to get back on my grind. I know I’ve gained weight because my face is so chunky these days and I’m back to wanting to hide under baggy clothes and never have photos taken of me. I hate feeling this way about myself but I have so many meal ideas for when I go back home. Maybe I’ll share them! Definitely want to be low card (not no carb because that sounds awful) and way more veggies! Bigger meals so I snack less throughout the day also sound appealing. I tend to binge at night after dinner so I need to find a way to fix that. I’ll keep ya posted.

What Levi Eats In A Day.

So I’ve always loved reading about what other kids eat in a day because I’m always looking for ideas and thought I’d share the meals I fed Levi in the past two days. Please no judgement, as I’d never judge any other mama. If you have any ideas or blogs you’d like to point me to for easy recipes, send them my way!


Breakfast Fed 30 minutes or so after waking up

  • Kodiak Pancake with a little bit of butter on top (I feel like it keeps the pancake from drying out and becoming hard)
  • 1/2 a Banana, chopped into small pieces

Snack I like to feed him his snack a little before his first nap around 9:30/10AM

  • Baby yogurt
  • Fruit (Banana and Raspberries)

Lunch Fed after waking up from his nap, give or take 30 minutes

  • Leftover Spanish rice from the night before
  • Grilled Cheese (1 piece of whole wheat bread and 1 slice of Colby jack cheese)
  • Applesauce (I just buy whatever brand and get it unsweetened)
  • A little bit of shredded cheese (this was while he waited for his grilled cheese)

Snack I like to feed him a snack around 2:30/3PM

  • Raspberries
  • Cheerios that have been soaking in milk to soften them up a bit


  • Chicken, shredded (on this particular day Jesse grilled chicken on the barbeque)
  • Potatoes (recipe HERE)
  • A little bit of avocado



  • Homemade pancakes this morning, again topped with butter
  • Banana
  • Sausage (Levi is a meat lover and sausage is perfect for protein and easy to crumble! I always take the meat out of the casing before cooking.)


  • Avocado on a toasted whole wheat bread
  • Baby yogurt


  • Raspberries
  • Leftover chicken from the dinner before
  • A little bit of Mac N Cheese


  • Squeeze pouch of puree (these are awesome when you’re on the go or want to add a variety of fruits/veggies to your kids’ diet)
  • 1/2 of a Graham Cracker


  • Leftover Mac N Cheese from lunch
  • Strawberries


I’d like to add that I offer water to him all day long and at every meal because I never want him to become dehydrated! Since he isn’t the biggest fan of milk in a sippy cup, I no longer offer it to him because I’m not really a big milk drinker in the first place and Jesse drinks 2% milk so that’s what we have in the house (not the recommended whole milk).

I also try to include a protein at every meal but sometimes it doesn’t work out the way I would like. Not every day is perfect and even though I’m a stay at home mom, I don’t always have everything on hand. Also, what really sucks is when you buy two containers of raspberries at the store and they look great but then you come to find they are all moldy! Yeah, FML because he loves raspberries. I tried to pick out the ones without any on them but unfortunately we wasted our money there. Ugh, bums me out. Also, you’ll notice he eats more fruits than veggies and I am working on it! I just realized that while I feel like I’m always eating vegetables, I don’t always serve them to him because they’re raw and obviously not safe for him to eat. This is where those squeeze pouches of purees come in handy…

Any comments are appreciated on this post! I’m always trying to find new foods to feed him or new ways of feeding things to him. I do a lot of cooking throughout the week so he eats a lot of leftovers! For the days I don’t have much, Mac N Cheese is always a plus!


Sleep Training.

I’m writing this at 10pm on a Thursday. I’ve tried the whole sleep training thing and it’s just not for me. I can only go about 15 minutes of listening to him scream before I give in and go into his room, pick him up, and console him. I watched a video on sleep training and the woman in the video said something along the lines of, “you must not have your baby’s cries down yet” if you go and get them. Um, what? I totally know when he’s just faking it and when he needs his mama. Sure, he stops crying as soon as I pick him up but that’s because that’s what he wants. I’m giving him what he wants. I know that. I’m in such a pickle. I want my bed back but I also love waking up next to him. I want him to be confident in his crib and be able to sleep in there throughout the night. I want that for him. But I also want him to feel secure and loved and if sleeping with his parents makes him feel that way then why should I stop it? I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

I somewhat feel like moms who have sleep trained babies will judge me but look, this shit is hard. There, I said it. Being a parent and trying to decide what’s best for your child is hard. We’ve finally succeeded in no more bottles, only sippy cups (!!!) and also no more nighttime feedings. It literally happened the day of his 1 year checkup. It’s like he knew we were talking about him at the appointment and he knew how stressed out I was about the whole sippy cup transition. I’ve fed him about 3 bottles with whole milk since last week due to rough times but other than that it’s been smooth sailing. He even drank out of a sippy cup yesterday that he hated before. Anyways, I’m super happy with how that has turned out for us. He’s not really drinking milk, though. Just water. Doc said it was fine and that works for me!

Well, this is short. I’m just struggling. He takes his naps in his crib. First one today was about 30 min *sigh* but the second nap was about 2 hours which was amazing. We get him tired and ready for bed in our room  and once he’s asleep we move him into his crib. I know that’s frowned upon but we don’t have a rocking chair in his room or anything like that and there’s no way in hell that he’ll fall asleep on his own in his crib so that’s why we do what we do. I’ve realized every family is different and what works for someone else might not work for us. I wish I had spent time doing the whole sleep training thing months ago but at that time it wasn’t right for our family. I woke up early for work and we still fed 2-3 times a night for him and that was already exhausting so it was easy to keep him in bed with us. I look back and I’m surprised I’m not as sleep deprived as I feel like I should be. How did I work full time and take care of a baby and a house?! I’m really lucky to be able to stay at home right now and I will never take it for granted. Ever. I love staying at home with Levi and being able to finally spend time with him. Instead of coming home and taking care of him, I feel like I actually get to know him. It’s weird and maybe other working moms might know the feeling…


One Year Old.

Levi’s birthday is today!! It’s pretty much over since he’s passed out and I’m laying in bed. We had such a good day. We started out eating bagels and sausage for breakfast (he loved it), then we went to the Oakland Zoo where we saw all the cute animals! Levi didn’t seem to care for them as much as I thought he would have, I think he liked the stroller ride the most since he loves going on walks in his stroller. We ate at this cute Mexican restaurant in Berkeley for lunch and then headed home and waited for my parents and brother to come over for dinner. After dinner Levi had his first taste of a cupcake! Okay, so I’ve totally given him frosting before, and cake, and ice cream because I’m that mom who has a sweet tooth as it is. We let him eat some frosting and about 1/2 of the cupcake before we ended that sugar high situation, haha.

I don’t have much to say as a newly stay at home mama so I’ll make this post all about him (as it should be).

He has a tooth up top about to come down. He’s a crazy couch surfer and I’m sure he’ll be walking in a month or so. He’s HILARIOUS and always keeps us laughing. His smile is so contagious. His hair is still awesome as ever and someone always comments on it without a fail anytime we go out and about. He’s got the cutest chunker legs that I just want to eat up. He’s stubborn. He knows how to sip from straws and sippy cups now but refuses to do so. He still loves looking out the window to watch the cars go by. He doesn’t really like the feeling of grass so we have to put a towel down for him to sit out front. He knows who Mickey Mouse is and will go get him for you if you ask him where Mickey Mouse is. He loves his books and will sit and flip the pages for the longest time. He’s a huge meat eater and loves any kind of meat we’ve given him (total opposite of his mama). He says all kinds of things these days and just babbles on and on. Still loves sleeping with mom and dad so he starts the night out in the crib but always ends up back in bed with us. He still drinks 4oz of milk in the middle of the night (I am going to try so hard to stop that now that I’m off!). He loves our cat more than our dog which melts my heart if he grows up to be a cat loving man. He loves playing with his LEGO blocks, I think they’re his favorite. He loves being chased and thinks it’s hilarious once I “get him” and tickle his belly.

He is our entire world. I just want to cry thinking about how much joy he’s brought into my life. Sometimes I get so scared having any kinds of thoughts of losing him. Like, if I hear about young babies or kids getting hurt or something it just freaks me out and makes me want to cry because I couldn’t even imagine losing him. I will forever protect my baby boy as much as I can. Although being a parent is not easy at all, I am so happy I am a mom. His mom. I really got lucky to have such a happy baby. As much as I want to go back and experience the first day he arrived on this earth, I can’t wait to see what kind of person he turns out to be because I’m already so proud of who he is today.

Happy first birthday bubba. I love you forever and ever ❤️

My 27th Birthday.

So I know I didn’t write last week and honestly it’s just because I wasn’t in the mood! I was so stressed out and dealing with a lot on my plate that I just didn’t have the time to sit down and write. I enjoy writing so it was a bummer to feel that way. Anyways, my birthday was on the 9th and I had a nice day! Started out going to a local coffee shop and getting a yummy coffee and waffle (that was TO DIE FOR, seriously). I spent the day with Levi and we went on a nice walk and waited until dinner to be with the family. We went to Mary’s Pizza Shack because it’s pretty kid friendly and I wanted something easy. I devoured my food and then afterwards we went to my parents house and had Baskin Robbins ice cream cake. Was I really celebrating my 27th birthday? Or was I celebrating my 10th? Haha.

The weekend before my birthday was really nice. I worked on Saturday and then on Sunday (the 7th), we went and got some photo’s taken of Levi for spring. I am super excited to get those back! I check my email a thousand times a day waiting for them to arrive! We went and got lunch after the photos and then drove back home. My parents came over to our house to watch Levi while Jesse took me out to dinner. We went to this nice little restaurant in this small town and I actually had an alcoholic drink! If you know me you know I don’t drink at all, so this was a big deal. It was actually delicious and I’d totally go back and get another one! It was a really nice dinner and I liked being taken out 🙂

SO after all of that from last weekend, I spent the rest of last week stressing about Jesse going on a fishing trip from Thursday-Sunday. I took Levi and Wilson over to my parents house and my mom watched Levi for me Thursday and Friday and I took the weekend off of work so that she could have a break since she was alone. My dad went on the fishing trip, too. She was exhausted to say the least and I can’t blame her! I had a nice time with her, though. I got Hello Fresh delivered so that we could have dinners already planned out for us! Smart, huh? We went to Target early Sunday morning so that we could beat the rush and I scored on a ton of clothes. Have you ever had one of those shopping trips where you don’t try on anything and it all ends up fitting you and looking fabulous? Yeah, it was like that. Anyways, it’s really nice to be back home now with Jesse. I really missed him. Where he went, there was no cell reception so I didn’t get to talk to him unless he drove out to a local store or something like that.

I signed up for the gym a few weeks ago and last Saturday I went for a training appointment (everyone gets one free session when they sign up) and I completely failed. The session was only 25 minutes and I couldn’t even last because I wanted to puke and I felt so dizzy. I think I was dehydrated but holy crap was I embarrassed. I’m still embarrassed. Like, should I just quit the gym and never show my face ever again? I won’t do that but I feel like it. I’m also still so freaking sore. My legs were sore just after doing the 10  minutes that I was able to push through. Yesterday I could hardly walk and today I’m still sore! I really haven’t been doing much since I quit the personal trainer over a month ago. The girl at the gym seemed annoyed that I didn’t want to sign up for a personal trainer and I tried to explain to her that I’ll be quitting my job soon so I won’t be able to afford it and she just blankly stared at me. Whatevs. I really want to lose weight and it’s so annoying because I know exactly what to do to lose the weight but I catch myself making stupid mistakes. I’m hoping once I’m off work I can really focus on my nutrition because it’s so important.

Okay, enough about me. Levi now has his two front teeth popped out! He is so freaking adorable I can’t handle the cuteness. He’s making a new sound as he talks now and it sounds hilarious and I love it. He crawls like a maniac and also stand up so quickly using anything he can get his hands on to help him up. We’re still trying the whole sippy cup transition and it’s taking time but he’s finally mastered sipping the puree out of those puree packs and we also have a sippy cup with a straw and he knows how to use that now! Progress for sure. I just need him to drink his milk out of there. He’s been taking only one nap for the past several days and I think that’s going to be his new normal now, which I guess I don’t mind too much. He’s been sleeping in his crib for the first half of the night and taking only one bottle now! If he wakes up any other times he’s easily coaxed back to sleep by us rubbing his back. I still wish we had a chair in his room because I don’t like that he comes back into our bed for the second half of his sleep but trying to get Jesse to buy a chair is like pulling teeth I tell ya! I don’t think Levi will be walking by his birthday but maybe in another month or so he’ll be walking on his own! I still can’t wrap my head around a little person just walking around my house. He grew up so fast! His birthday is next week and we plan on taking him to the zoo for the first time so I hope it all works out and we’re able to go because I think it would be so much fun for him!