Working On Myself, For Myself

So as of late I’ve fallen back into bad eating habits and hating the way I look. I let stress get the best of me and when my confidence is low I don’t want to be around anyone or do anything. Laying in bed just sounds nice 24/7. I don’t actually get the chance to lay in bed due to having a child to take care of, but I fantasize about it haha.

With all of that being said, it’s time to get back to work. I haven’t been to the gym in about 3 weeks but I have done workouts at home that last between 30-40 minutes and they are really good workouts so I’m proud of myself about those. It’s Monday and I’ve woken up with cramps and a headache and a bloated stomach (hi, mother nature!) so I didn’t go to the gym this morning but I do plan on going for a nice walk with Levi. I didn’t eat so health conscious over the weekend because it was mine and Jesse’s 10 year anniversary (!!!) so good food was a must. Anyways, I really want to try eliminating all of the crap out of my diet. Last week I ate the same breakfast almost every day which was 2 scrambled eggs (one whole, one egg white) and sautéed zucchini and mushrooms. I plugged it all into MyFitnessPal to keep track of the carb intake. For my lunches, they varied between a low carb pita pizza, salad, and cauliflower fried “rice” (omg you must try!). For my dinners I just tried to keep the carb choices smart by having brown rice or sweet potatoes instead of white rice and white potatoes and I made sure my portions were controlled. I was so happy with all of my choices last week so I’m really motivated to do them all over again this week.

One thing I’m trying to work on for myself is realizing that food is for fuel. My hairdresser said those words to me on Saturday and that’s exactly what I needed to hear. All the extra processed food is really just…extra. Unnecessary. Will I still eat it? Yes, of course because I’m a total foodie, but it’ll just be controlled. I have a tendency to rely on food for comfort when I’m stressed, sad, or not feeling well. Not going to lie I totally had a reeces peanut butter cup along with my lunch because I was craving chocolate. It was the only candy I bought at the store and it was for emergencies (lol) only. I think being crampy and bloated and feeling blah is an emergency. Also, I’m trying to stop eating when I’m genuinely full. That’s also an issue of mine. I tend to eat until I’m stuffed sometimes because I don’t want to waste food or because it’s SO good I can’t stop. I think it’s important to have a good relationship with food and I don’t have one and I never did growing up so it’s a habit that will be hard to break but I’m determined.

I figure if I stick with this for at LEAST a month it’ll become a new habit which will in turn become a new routine and a new lifestyle for me. I don’t like the weight I’m at right now and I hate the scale to be honest but I think when first trying to lose weight it is important to see where you’re starting at so you can make sure your new diet is actually helping you lost weight along with working out. In my opinion, anyways.

This morning I skipped breakfast because of the bloat and just not being hungry so for lunch I made a nice filling salad. For anyone who’s uninspired when it comes to salads I really recommend going to Costco and getting those premade salad mixes, or your regular grocery store. I got the Mediterranean salad mix and the bag is huge and has already lasted me 3 different meals (having it for lunch on 3 different days). To bulk my salad up I’ll add whatever veggies I like; cucumbers, tomatoes, carrots, avocado, radishes, and red/green onions are all good! Sometimes the salads will come with some great add ins like nuts or cheese (which I think is good in moderation!). For proteins I’ll use tuna salad, a Boca burger patty, egg salad, or leftover meat from the dinner before. I do realize having tuna salad or egg salad might not be the healthiest because of the mayo that’s mixed in but I usually don’t add too much and I like the flavor so I do what I want! Having a food scale and tracking everything on MyFitnessPal is super helpful in the beginning to make sure you’re in a caloric deficit for weight loss. I highly recommend doing that if you’re just starting out with any kind of diet change and are wanting to lose/gain weight.


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