18 weeks and 4 days.

Thanksgiving was a success in terms of blood sugars! I got full quite fast so I didn’t eat too much. Or did I? I probably did lol. I don’t have a huge family so there was only 6 of us there, surrounded by 4 dogs which was amazing. I had to work earlier in the day but I didn’t mind it much to be honest.

I feel like my baby bump is slowly coming out of its shell. Sometimes it’s there and sometimes it’s not! My stomach really only pops out if I eat a big meal. I still feel baby kick all the time 🙂 It’s a nice little feeling to have. Did I mention I’m having a boy?? I can’t remember if I mentioned it in the last post but if I did, oops! We’re beyond thrilled. I also never knew how picky I’d be with buying clothes. There aren’t enough cute boy clothes. I’m not really a fan of all the blues and greens and character type clothing. And I’m also pretty cheap. I like a good deal. Some of these outfits I come across are like $20 and it blows my mind! I’d rather find good priced tops and bottoms and pair them together for a cute simple outfit. And I know I won’t be buying shoes until he actually starts walking. I feel like they’re unnecessary.

Anyways, this past week has been stressful for me. Since I work with dogs, my doctor prefers me not to work with them after the 29th of December. It’s a safety measure so I don’t run the risk of getting knocked over or jumped on by big, strong dogs. It sucks. I can’t work with the cats either because of toxoplasmosis. I’m stuck in this position of either having to go on disability or having my work put me in a new temporary position. I’m worried they won’t be able to find something for me, and I’m also worried that they’ll find something for me that I won’t enjoy. I mean, is that terrible to say? The reason I do what I do is because I love it. I’m not exactly great at answering telephones and talking to people. I also think I might be overthinking this and I’m just assuming I’m going to be terrible at whatever position they find for me, if they find one. If I go on disability I might lose my mind though. I’ll for sure have to come up with some daily activities or hobbies to do to keep me sane. I mean, I’m a hermit and I love being at home but at the same time I have to have something to do or else I go insane. But I don’t do so well at projects that last more than 10 minutes because then I get bored. Another reason why I love my job, I’m always moving around doing different tasks.

Sorry if this post was long and boring. I feel like I have a lot going on in my head and I totally let out the tears today after work because of the stress and fear that I have of not knowing what’s going to happen. One thing to looks forward to is my mini vacation Jesse and I will be taking this weekend. I definitely feel like I need to get away for a day or two. I also have my second trimester ultrasound next Tuesday! That’ll be fun. Update you next week 🙂

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