I’ve been getting so antsy lately and have been wanting to tell all my coworkers about being pregnant! There are a small few who already know (thanks guys for keeping the secret!). I took my own pregnancy announcement pictures yesterday. Total DIY style lol. I think it turned out pretty cute but obviously I’m not a professional so whatevs! I’m debating if I want to announce at my 12 week mark or wait until the 13th week. Eh, we’ll see what I decide to do.
Symptoms: Going to the bathroom, A LOT. I thought I was already going a lot but it got even worse lol. I mean it’s not a bad thing but I definitely woke up 3 times last night having to go. I’m still experiencing nausea but instead of it being 24/7, it happens towards the end of the day. Around noon or around dinner time and I seriously feel so sick. It still sucks like it did before lol. I’m not sure what I’d rather experience, being sick in the morning or being sick in the evening? Another is being exhausted by 7:30-8pm. Last night I actually stayed up until 10pm which has not happened in a while. Don’t know how that happened but usually I’m passed out before 9pm for sure. Also, I’ve been noticing acne?? My face has been breaking out and also a little on my back. I usually never have issues with acne. I’m wondering if it has anything to do with me eating out more? Or is it just all these hormones that have been released? Not sure, but it’s annoying lol. Also, I haven’t gained any weight since being pregnant. I actually lost 3 pounds probably due to all the food aversions and nausea but my doctor wants me to start gaining .5-1 pound once I get into the second trimester. Oh yea, one last symptom is me getting full really fast. I definitely can’t eat as much as I used to. Super weird.
Diabetes: Diabetes sucks ass. I think a lot about how much I wish I didn’t have diabetes, especially while pregnant. Because I’ve been eating out a lot, the food will often spike me hours after eating and usually while I’m asleep. So I get woken up a lot in the middle of the night. And I can’t help but feel guilty when I have highs. Obviously the last thing I want is to harm my unborn child, but trying to have extremely tight control has been difficult for me. I know my A1C is perfect and for the majority of the day my blood sugars are in range but once I have a high I just feel like I’ve ruined everything. It’s definitely a struggle and very stressful and it also sucks to not know anyone who has experienced any of this because everyone else is “normal”. They can binge on the pizza or the chocolate cake and eat and do whatever they want while being pregnant. And I don’t get to do that. Not saying that I would want to, but chocolate cake does sound freaking amazing right now (and it’s only 10:30AM). I’m curious to see how people will treat me as a pregnant Diabetic. I’m already ready for the people who think they know everything to try and tell me how to live. I’ve prepped my body for such a long time to prepare it for pregnancy. I don’t think people will really understand what I had to go through and am still going through to have a healthy baby.
Personal life: I couldn’t be more happy to be able to have my boyfriend has my partner in life. There’s so much love in our relationship and he makes me laugh all the time. He’s done so much for me when I’ve been sick or have had extreme lows. He wakes up when my phone goes off about my blood sugar and will wake me up if I’m sleeping aka trying to ignore my phone. Honestly he spoils the crap out of me. It’s crazy to think we’ve been together since I was 17. We’ve, thankfully, changed so much since then and have been lucky enough to grow so much but grow together. It’s normal to grow apart after high school because people end up wanting different things in life. But we’ve always pretty much wanted the same things and have always supported each other in whatever else we wanted. He supported me when I made a big decision to quit my job (not my current job) and basically be jobless for about a month due to that job being very unhealthy for me. He saw what it was doing to me and wanted me to be happy. Btw, a jobless liz just created a very unhappy liz. I hate being stuck at home without having my own source of income to go do things. I like being busy, but I’m also a total home body lol but it’s only enjoyable when I feel like being a home body. Not because it’s my only option. If that makes sense.
Anyways, this was just a small little update on how I’m doing as of late. I’ll post another update next week!