We Have A Stander.

Well, an assisted stander. Levi is pulling himself up using the couch/us like it’s nobody’s business! It’s so wild to see how quickly he’s learned to do this. It’s absolutely amazing to me. I really feel like he’ll be walking in a month or so. I mean, he seems determined!

We’ve fed him more solids as of late and he’s been such a good eater!! After all those days of worrying and crying, thinking I was making him slow down because I wasn’t there enough for him. It feels good to see him progress as much as he has. I made chicken noodle soup last night and I drained the liquid for his portion and chopped up all the noodles and veggies and he loved it! He had it again for lunch today and ate it all! It makes me so so happy.

This is my last week of the gym! I’m pretty sad about it because that means I have to join a real gym *gulp*. I am a lot more confident in the gym, don’t get me wrong, but it’s nice to have someone tell you what to do and how to do it. It’ll be greatly missed! I’ve been 50/50 with my diet. Some days are better than others. I’ve been quite emotional lately so I’ve been eating more than usual which is what I do when I’m feeling down. So that’s shitty.

Over the weekend I went to a Paint Your Pet class that my work had and I painted Wilson! It was a fun experience for sure and Jesse hung up my painting right when I got home which I thought was so cute!! He totally doubted my painting skills before I went in so it was nice to prove to him that I could do it! So since I had Saturday off to do that, we also did our grocery shopping on Saturday which meant that Sunday was lazy day!! I don’t remember the last time I had a lazy day with Levi and Jesse! Literally did like three loads of laundry, Jesse let me sleep in, and we just chilled and did nothing all day and it was so amazing. I loved it and I was so sad that it had to end.

Today I worked out and then went to TJ Maxx and Whole Foods with Levi. I looove taking him places with me! He’s always so good. We finally got a basket for his toys! 12.99 people! Like, I almost bought one at target for $25. Tj Maxx is the place to go for stuff like that. I’m so cheap, haha.

Anyways, I’m excited for this week. There might be a surprise! I’ll have to update you all next Monday 😉

He Eats!

(Feeling uninspired for a yummy salad? Add some bacon, seasoned chicken, and hard boiled egg! Not shown are the chopped veggies at the bottom of the bowl lol)

We’ve made some great strides in the past few days with new foods! Levi really likes waffles and meat! He had his first taste of some pulled pork at a BBQ restaurant close by and he was obsessed. I know it had BBQ sauce on it and it might just have tons of sugar but hey, I don’t want him eating bland food because I want him to experience all types of flavors! Tonight I made a salad with chicken that I seasoned with Italian seasoning and I tore it into little pieces and he was a total fan of that, too. I am so proud of him! I was feeling sad earlier because I saw a photo of how much a toddler should eat (I know he isn’t a toddler yet) and I was like, damn, Levi definitely doesn’t eat that much solids in a day. I was feeling like a failure, again, for not being home with him all the time to control what and when he eats. I don’t have all the time in the world to make baby muffins or pancakes or whatever stay at home moms make for their babies. I know working moms do it too, but I’m hoping you get what I’m saying.

Anyways, he’s still crawling around and is totally obsessed with standing and using the couch or us to hold himself up. I’m not sure if he’s been doing this and I haven’t noticed but yesterday I saw him go into sitting from laying on his tummy. Like, when was he capable of this?! I was so proud of him! I have no idea when he started doing that but it had to have been recent. Saturday night my parents watched him overnight so me and Jesse could do a date night and have an uninterrupted sleep! How cool is that? Our date night consisted of In N Out and Target and then getting into bed almost immediately after getting home. We were both exhausted. I had to work that day and didn’t get off until 7 so I was really tired already. As soon as I woke up in the morning I wanted to get Levi because I missed him so much. I didn’t even get to sleep in, I woke up at 6:30.

We finally got a real high chair for Levi and I love it! We got rid of the pack and play that we had downstairs because anytime we put Levi in it, he would just stand up and hold onto the table and we were scared he would fall out. We could have lowered the mattress to the bottom to be more of a play pen but the thought of confining him to that small area seemed dumb because I’d rather just put him on the living room floor. My house is pretty compact so it’s not like he’s ever far away from me if I’m in the kitchen and he’s in the living room so it’s not a big deal. It definitely frees up a lot of space in our house, though! It’s nice to get rid of some baby stuff, as much as I miss him being small. I actually can’t wait until he no longer needs formula because I really want to get rid of the bottles! I know he’ll still drink from bottles but I don’t like the thing we hang our bottles on to dry, it takes up space on my counter and just creates more clutter.

We’re getting ready for Levi’s first birthday and I’m trying to come up with all the details so I won’t be stressed out. I’m getting excited for it! Pizza and cupcakes, we’re keeping it simple! We have a clubhouse behind our home where we live and we might have the party there because I feel bad using my parents’ house and I don’t want them to stress about having people over. We’ll probably just use the clubhouse, which I think is free because we have HOA fees so it probably pays for it? I have no idea actually. Just another thing we have to check out.

Lately I’ve been having issues with my blood sugars, which I think I might have mentioned last week so I recently added a unit to my long lasting insulin for the mornings and it seems to have helped me throughout the day. I have woken up twice with blood sugars under 120! Awesome! And to those who might be wondering, no, I’m not trying to get good blood sugars to have a baby. I just really want to be healthy and when I was trying for a baby and while I was pregnant I had the best blood sugars I’ve ever had while having diabetes and it was awesome. It was a lot of hard work and I don’t plan to be that strict but I do want to be healthy like that again. It’s so important for anyone with diabetes!

I want to end this post with something I was thinking about earlier today and that is to really appreciate your life and where you’re at. Everyone is so different and I know I’ve talked about social media and how easy it is to compare yourself to others but I caught myself doing it the other day and it made me feel so shitty. I follow someone who has multiple kids, dogs, a home, a marriage, good paying jobs, and it made me want that. WHY WOULD I WANT THAT? I already have a family, two pets, and a home. But I don’t have that marriage. I don’t have a good paying job. The thing is, I haven’t’ worked for a good paying job, you know what I mean? Why should I have something that I haven’t worked for? The marriage thing is a work in progress, lol. My time will come one day but it isn’t that important when I really stop to think about it. People get married to start their lives together, right? Well we’ve already started ours, we just skipped a step and that’s OK. It’s OK to skip steps. I think what I’m really trying to say is that there’s this whole perception that after high school you need to go to college and then get a great job that pays well and then you get married and buy a home and start a family. It doesn’t need to be that way, though. It sucks that that’s what people want, exactly in that order. And if you don’t do it in that order then you’ve messed up or if you’ve skipped a step you’ve messed up. Who cares if you still live with your parents and you’re 25 or that you work as a cashier or that you had kids before you got married. It shouldn’t define you or your happiness. When I stop to think about all that I have I’m reminded of how blessed I am. I think everyone is blessed in their own ways, you just have to stop and think about it all. If you live at home with your parents or a family member maybe that means you get to save money or travel more than someone who doesn’t. If you live with a partner that means you get to spend time with them and don’t have to worry about long distance, etc etc. There’s pro’s to every situation, you just have to think about it.

Hopefully that helps anyone who might be going through a social media depression of comparing your life to someone else’s. It helped me.

10 Months Old.

Guys. Levi is officially 10 months old (and a few days). He has a tooth on the top that’s slightly peeking through…which is causing him some trouble lately. He’s been extremely fussy at home but of course is the perfect angel when we’re out and about. The nights have been rough for all of us. He’s been waking up crying a lot and I hate to give him Tylenol for the pain but I have been at night just to help. He’s been obsessed with standing and walking around while we hold his arms up for support. He’s crawling a lot more, but still has his moments where he’s stubborn and will cry and whine if he wants to be held. He’s currently crawling all over the floor playing with a block and I’m so proud of him!

Today since he was so fussy, I decided to take him to Michael’s and Hobby Lobby. I’ve been on the lookout for a cute basket for downstairs to place some of his toys in and I’ve had no luck. Who knew baskets were so expensive?! I’m too cheap to be spending $30+ on a damn basket. I don’t want a wicker basket, I want like, a linen basket? I don’t know the proper names of things so whatever. We also got him a real high chair today! We went to Buy Buy Baby and picked one out and I’m so excited to use it! I’m tired of using the chair that hooks up to a dining chair. We got that because our house is super tiny so I wanted to save space but now I’m annoyed with it and I feel like he needs something nicer and bigger. Yesterday was also an errand day. We went to Costco and Safeway. Also had to stop by Ulta to pick up a couple of items. Last week I wasn’t feeling the best and I honestly thought I had mold poisoning. MOLD POISONING. It was just allergies 🙂 haha. I found spots on my beauty blender and thought it was mold so I threw it out. I mean, it could have been mold I’m not sure but after I threw it out I realized I had no foundation brushes and no more beauty blenders. I put my foundation on with my hands the rest of the week. I used to do that when I first started doing my makeup and wow, what a throw back. I hated it. The feeling of foundation on my fingers and not being able to blend out everything really disturbed me but it was better than going bare-faced. I’ve been taking some allergy meds and I’m feeling a lot better so yay for realizing I didn’t have mold poisoning!

Today was weird. I’ve been suuuper emotional. After my workout this morning (which was awesome), I came home so sad and started crying. I’m not really sure where the sadness came from. Maybe because I have to work tomorrow?  My house is a disaster? Dishes weren’t clean? I don’t know. I’ve also been having really bad blood sugars lately and it seems like no matter what I do, I’m always running high. I should probably see my endo soon to help me with this but it’s for sure affecting me. It’s really frustrating. It’s hard taking care of yourself when you’re taking care of your family, too. I was telling Jesse that I haven’t had a pedicure since before I had Levi. I’m not a manicure girl because my jobs always seem to ruin my nails but I love having my toes done! I’ve also had a gift card for a facial for almost a year now and I’ve had zero time to go and do it. I should really set some time aside for myself.  Everyone should every once in a while.

This week’s goals are to find a day to pamper myself and to work harder at my blood sugars and eating healthier. There was a day last week where I packed a really good lunch and snacks and I ended up eating so bad the entire day because we had an event at work where they catered Mexican food. It was so good that I ate it the entire day I was at work, but it did nothing for me health wise. Anyways, I’m hoping this week will be much different! Sending good vibes to everyone, and make some goals for yourself this week! Reward yourself once you complete them, too.


Finally A Crawler.

Alright, guys, he’s finally doing it. He’s crawling! It’s a cute army crawl and he kind of crawls like a wounded soldier (hate to compare it to that, but it’s true). He crawls to things he wants like toys and mommy of course but sometimes he gets frustrated and puts his head down and pouts if we make him crawl to something. At least he can do it so that’s all that matters to me! I was vacuuming earlier and he crawled around the corner of the wall to watch me because he’s always so fascinated when I vacuum. It was so cute!

Another big moment that happened just yesterday was that he finally ate baby food that had chunks in it and didn’t gag! Woohoo! It’s a mac and cheese with little pasta pearls in it. He loves the pureed version of mac and cheese and when I tried this chunky one a week or so ago, he gagged and spit up all the pasta pearls and yesterday he ate them. So happy! I also fed him a piece of my English muffin and he loved it! I’ve really enjoyed my time with him yesterday and today. It makes me extremely sad to go to work tomorrow.

I was lucky enough to have an extra day off of work this week and I’m already 10x happier this week. It makes working the harder weeks worth it, I suppose. I had an awesome workout yesterday that I really wanted to try and do today at home but today sucked ass in terms of self motivation and I overall just felt like crap all day. I’ve had this lingering feeling as if I’m going to get sick but I don’t end up getting sick? I think it’s allergies honestly but it’s still a crappy feeling. I was exhausted all day today and when I tried to take a nap with Levi my Dexcom alerted me that I was having a low blood sugar so I had to get up from my nice deep sleep. This leads me to a small story time about what happened when I went to go treat my low blood sugar. I went and got a small apple juice and drank that and then I went to go have some leftover pizza in the fridge. I squirt what I think is ranch onto the foil and dip my pizza into it and take a nice, big bite. As I’m chewing I look down and think, “this ranch looks weird” and then I glance over at the squeeze bottle and see that it’s MAYONNAISE. Did you read that correctly? Have you gagged yet? It made me so nauseous for about an hour after just thinking about it. Actually thinking about it right now really grosses me out. So yeah, fun stuff.

I ate a lot of carbs today and I’m pretty mad at myself about it. I started my morning off right with a nice protein smoothie and then later got McDonald’s hash browns that I just seemed to be craving. Then I ate the slice of pizza and ordered Philly Cheesesteak for lunch which I didn’t even end up wanting because of the whole mayo fiasco but I ate my sandwich anyways (I ordered only a half so that’s not as bad, right? And I was too grossed out to eat the fries). For dinner I made garlic butter noodles. Even though it’s carby, it just sounded good after all the shit I ate earlier. Now that I’m typing everything out, I just want to barf. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I’m sure it will be because I’ll be at work and I’ll be moving around and what not.

So yesterday after the gym I got into my car and saw the check engine light on. I drove home and right as soon as I got into my back parking lot, my car stalled and wouldn’t drive anymore! The gas pedal did nothing. Jesse was able to turn it back on after I had turned the car off and drive into the parking spot but UGH my car sucks right now, or has been for a while. We took it in today to fix whatever was wrong with it so I’m hoping I won’t run into any issues with it for a while. Anyone else waiting for their tax refund to come in? Sheesh. It’s like as soon as you get some money, shit hits the fan and you don’t even get to save any of it! I’ll be good though, it’s okay.

Anyways, I’ve got all my meals planned out for the week and I’m super excited for dinner every night! Sunday night I cooked the BEST dinner I’ve had in a long long time. I don’t usually eat steak or even crave it but I wanted a filet mignon with roasted asparagus and smashed roasted potatoes. It was delicious. I should probably share the recipe….okay if you’ve made it this far then I’ll just tell ya! It was pretty simple…

Get yourself some filet mignon steak. I had two and cut them in half since they were pretty thick. I seasoned with salt, pepper, and a little onion powder. I cooked them in butta baby! I spooned the melted butter over the steaks as I cooked them. I cooked them for about 4 to 5 minutes on each side or until I felt like they were done. Two were thicker than the others so I cooked them a bit longer. They came out perfectly and melted in our mouths! So delish. The asparagus I seasoned with salt and pepper and roasted for 20 minutes at 400 degrees. Roasted asparagus is like CANDY! So so so so so good. For the potatoes I used gold potatoes (the cute small ones) and boiled for about 25 minutes or so until they were soft and fork could pierce through them and then drained them once done. I then placed them on an oiled baking sheet and smashed each potato with a potato masher and I melted butter in a cup and added pressed garlic and parsley flakes and brushed each potato with this deliciousness and broiled the potatoes for about 10 minutes, then topped them with parmesan cheese, salt and pepper and put it back under the broiler for about 5 minutes. Honestly, just go on Pinterest and search baked smashed potatoes or something like that and I’m sure you’ll find a recipe you like. I’m not a huge potato person and just typing about them makes me want them again. Mouth watering good. Have you ever cooked something and had it turn out so good that you wanted to make it again for everyone you love because you want to share it with them? That was me after I ate that dinner the other night, haha.

I hope everyone has a good week, my apologies for getting this blog post out a little late!

A Weird Week Ahead.

So I know I didn’t post yesterday but I figured I’d just do it today. I had nobody to watch Levi for me today so I had to have it off but having today off meant that I have to work on SUNDAY *insert extremely mad emoji + crying emoji*. The one day I get to spend with my family, I have to work. I will forever pout about this issue and I don’t care if anyone thinks it’s annoying. It’s been extremely taxing on my mental health as of late. Don’t get me wrong, I love making my own money and getting out of the house baby-free, but it is really hard because not only am I working on a Sunday, I’m scheduled to close all week which  means Levi will most likely be asleep by the time I get home or he’ll be going to be shortly after I get home so I don’t really get to be with him. I do get to spend time with him in the mornings which are always fun so I’ll just have to soak it all in as much as I can.

Anyways, we tried giving him mac and cheese that had pieces of pasta in it and Levi was NOT a fan. He gagged and spit it out, so that’s great. I feel myself getting frustrated that he hasn’t progressed as fast as other babies and I need to snap out of it. He’s still isn’t crawling but I’m able to get him to kind of crawl when I place his favorite puffs in front of him! It’s a work in progress still. He loves to walk, though! Maybe he’ll get the hang of it in a month or so but he walks everywhere when we hold his arms up for balance.

My personal training is coming to and end pretty soon so I finally went to a gym over the weekend to get a 7 day pass so that I could try it out. I was able to go this morning for about 30 minutes and I was really pleased with the set up and I know if I go often, it wont take me long to get super comfortable there. I already feel more comfortable in a gym setting after all these personal training sessions I’ve had. The only thing I think I’d struggle with is coming up with a plan every time I go to the gym. Last night I wrote down workouts to do and how many sets/reps for each so that when I went today, I’d be more than prepared and I wouldn’t walk around like a deer in headlights. It was a success!

I finally got my cat back from my parents house. I missed her so much and as soon as I let her out of her carrier, my dog went right up to her sniffing her and wagging his tail. It melted my heart for sure! I think he missed her 🙂 I sure did. Well, this is a super short post and I’m sorry there’s not much going on! I’m feeling inspired to get healthy and excited to workout and eat better. I’ve been eating so freaking bad it’s insane. I just have to come up with new ideas to make food exciting again. It’s hard to plan dinner when I close at work because I get home late but last week Jesse made ground turkey taco’s following instructions that I gave him and they turned out awesome so I’m excited for him to make them again this week! We’ve somewhat ditched red meat and are sticking with turkey and chicken. Anyone else get grossed out by ground beef sometimes? Or maybe all of the time, haha. I’m probably more of a vegetarian than I think I am to be honest.

Down and Out.


This past week has been a bit uneventful so I’m not sure what to update you all on. I was lucky to have last Thursday off to be with Levi which I cherished 100%. He continued to have his cold through the week and is finally seeming to be better. He only coughs a little bit but it’s nowhere near how it was when he first had it. He’s doing a lot better. Today he’s been pretty fussy so I’m really tired. It seems like everything I try to do to keep him occupied only works for 10 minutes and then he’s bored of it. Doesn’t help that it’s been raining either so I didn’t take him on a walk like I wanted to. It’s windy and when the wind blows it’s super cold so I didn’t want to put him through that, although I’m sure he would have enjoyed getting out of the house.

I worked on Saturday, per usual, and then Sunday was fun family day! We went downtown to the farmers market but then it ended up raining so we weren’t there for long. We then went to my parents house to pick up a few things and headed home around 2 and then I had my tax appointment at 3. Blah, taxes. I didn’t realize how expensive it was going to be this year to file them.

My blood sugars have been extremely poor this past week. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m stressed out about personal things going on in my life or what. I’m talking about always being in the 200’s and last night I was in the 300’s and was high overnight that I ended up correcting but woke up at 180 anyways. For all of my non-diabetic readers, that’s awful blood sugars! I’ve been eating badly, too. It’s like I stopped caring about my health and I need to get on track somehow. I feel uninspired and I think because I had no worries while on vacation, I’ve brought that mentality back home with me? I don’t know.

So while I’m trying to get back on track with being healthy, I’m dealing with working full time this week and dealing with not knowing who’s going to watch Levi during the week. My aunt isn’t able to watch him tomorrow so I was able to get my dad to watch him but I didn’t think that was going to work out so I was panicking and assuming I’d have to call out of work tomorrow. Then, I’m working Thursday so I need to figure out who will watch him then. I don’t like to put him with the same person multiple days in the week because I always feel bad like I’m tiring everyone out because it is tiring taking care of a baby, lets be honest.

I woke up in a depressed mood and I’ve shed a couple of tears today. My emotions are out of whack and I’m probably spending too much time in my own head or something. I already can’t wait for this week to be over with. I have nothing special going on this week except for a doctor appointment via phone call on Wednesday for Levi. I was hoping it would be during my lunch hour but it won’t be, so I’ll have to pull myself away from work for a second since it’s really important. Levi still doesn’t seem interested in crawling but he does love to stand. He’ll stand while holding onto my shirt and if I put him far away from me (while holding his arms), he’ll walk to me and it’s the cutest thing ever. I was able to put him in his crib for his first nap today! It was successful and he slept for about an hour and half and didn’t cry once I put him down. I think I’m going to try to put him down in his crib tonight to see how it goes. I really want to transition him back to his crib by the summer since it’ll be hot and I definitely don’t want to share the bed with him when it’s 100 degrees in our house. The upstairs is always 10x hotter than the downstairs, and sometimes the AC doesn’t make much of a difference. So that’ll be fun. He still only has his two teethers and hasn’t been drooling much today. I’m wondering if his teeth will just randomly come through without notice because every time we think he’s teething hardcore and teeth will pop out, they don’t. He says “dadadadada” and “bababa” all the time and we love it.

Levi Is 9 Months Old.

Where did the time go? Technically he turned nine months old last week. It’s been quite a week since we got back from vacation. There’s been doctor visits and even an ambulance ride! A day after we got back from vacation I was able to book an appointment to see a speech and physical therapy pediatrician because of Levi’s lack of interest in solid foods. She gave us a ton of information and basically said that if he only wanted purees until 18 months, to let him eat purees until 18 months! Wild number in my opinion. I hope he gets used to solids before then but a mama can only hope, right? She gave us some tips and tricks to help move this process along and get him used to the textures of solid foods. So far, he isn’t a fan of the mesh feeder thing (don’t know the proper name so that’s what I’m  calling it). I’ve tried frozen banana which he wasn’t a big fan of and today I put spaghetti inside of it and he actually preferred sticking his hand in the spaghetti and sauce instead. I am happy about that one! He loved the spaghetti sauce. It had ground turkey in it so I made sure to break it up into smaller pieces and he enjoyed it a lot. He got fussy during our feeding so I pureed the leftovers and I’ll try feeding it to him later on tonight.

He just woke up from a  3 hour nap! I was able to sleep 2 of those hours with him and I feel a lot better too. My blood sugars were quite high when I woke up so I’m sure that’s why I was extra sleepy. Anyways, he’s been doing good with his naps and we don’t have any issues with him really. Some days of course are better than others but today he took some good naps! We went to the doctor today for his 9 month checkup and the doctor says he’s doing great. He says he’s measuring the size of most 15 month olds which I’m not surprised since he’s such a chunk. He’s 30 inches long and 26 pounds! The doctor said he isn’t concerned with Levi not crawling since Levi rolls around everywhere. You can put something somewhere and he’ll eventually roll his way over to it no matter where it is. We’re still doing a ton of tummy time so he’ll eventually learn to crawl, though. It’s one of my goals for him this month! Levi currently has a really bad cold so he’s been having a really bad cough and you can tell he has mucous in his throat because when he coughs, he’ll gag and then swallow which brings me to my next story…

Saturday morning he woke up with that nasty cough and I almost didn’t go to work that day because I was so worried about him. I had Jesse call the advice nurse and after all the questions she asked him, she said he was fine. Well, that night when I was feeding him before his bedtime he was being really fussy and then he’d cough that nasty cough and it would scare me. I decided to go downstairs to call the advice nurse again and while I was trying to get ahold of someone (so many automated prompts!), Levi started to projectile vomit. Jesse started freaking out which then made me freak out, so I hung up and called 911. They sent out an ambulance right away and while they were on their way, Levi was still throwing up. In the bathroom, in the bathtub, down the stairs, and in the sink. His face was all red and his eyes were watery and he looked like he was really having a hard time breathing right. I honestly thought our son was going to die. Like, really. It was so terrifying. When the ambulance got to my house Levi had stopped throwing up and was acting like he was completely fine. We decided to go on the ambulance to the hospital because I was afraid he was going to throw up in the car and I wouldn’t be able to help him like they would. The entire ride there he was content and hardly made a peep. His vitals all came back normal. At the hospital they checked his lungs and they said they were clear, which was my biggest concern. Levi really scared us that night. Apparently he was vomiting because of all the milk in his tummy and with him gagging when he coughed, it was probably his way of just getting everything out. He hasn’t thrown up since that night but I’m being really cautious with him. I was mostly terrified of this cough since the speech doctor told us that if he had watery eyes or a wet cough while eating it could mean that something is in his lungs so I was terrified of him getting pneumonia or something. He’s fine, he just has a bad cold unfortunately. The only remedy is for him to have some time in the cold air or steam and to just wait it out.

Besides all of that, he’s doing pretty good. He acts like the happy baby he always is. He talks all the time and loves to clap his hands and watch the cars go by. I still cannot believe he’s going to be a year old in three more months. We do let him watch TV sometimes (judge me all you want crazy moms!) and his favorite thing to watch is Paw Patrol. I don’t let him watch a lot of it because it bugs me when I look over and he’s just staring at the TV but he mostly watches it in the mornings when he wakes up. He still loves the Baby Shark video and I swear he dances to it now. Jesse went back to work today so Levi will be able to spend time with his family members again. Except things are about to change and I’m not sure how available some people will be so that’s a little stressful situation I’m in right now. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to work anymore but if I don’t work how will I get health insurance? If I didn’t have diabetes I guess I wouldn’t really care but I kind of have a serious disease to deal with so it makes a big difference. I’m not really sure what’s going to happen within the next couple of weeks. We’re going to be short staffed again and they’ll need me to work five days but I can hardly keep up with that already, and then throw on top not having anyone to watch my son? A big “WTF am I gunna do?!” moment. I guess we’ll deal with it when we have to deal with it…


My East Coast Trip.

Last Wednesday was the day Jesse and I flew to Boston and started our vacation! We were so sad to leave Levi behind, like really sad about it. The flight wasn’t too bad but it took about five hours, which is too long for us. I get stuck in the middle seat so I’m crammed in between Jesse and whoever else is sitting in the window seat. I’d love to have the window seat but I choose the middle to be close to Jesse since he loves the aisle seat since he’s a bigger human being (haha). I actually got lucky and had a very petite girl sitting next to me which meant I had a bit more room. We flew JetBlue for the first time and holy crap do they spoil you with snacks! Awesome! I probably ate a bit too much on this flight but I kept feeling I was hungry. Anyways, we couldn’t wait to land.

The weather in Boston was cold but it wasn’t too bad. I got an awesome coat from Old Navy that I wore throughout our entire vacation and it was amaaazing with the cold weather. Once we got to the hotel we decided to go out for a walk and see where we could have dinner. We found a cute little bar and restaurant and I kept things a bit light and had a steak salad and fries (ok, not so light). The food was really good! Where we were staying they had a bunch of shops close by so it was nice to walk around and do a little shopping. They have this really cheap clothing store called Primark and seriously, everything is really cheap but cute! Couldn’t pass it up.

The first full day in Boston consisted of us wandering around the city. There’s this brick line around the city called the “Freedom Trail” and it pretty much takes you to certain landmarks. We walked and ubered our way through the city and saw a bunch of stuff like Bunker Hill, old cemeteries, got pastries at the famous Mike’s Pastry, went by Fenway Park, went to the USS Constitution Museum, saw an entire lake that was frozen, and just explored our little hearts out! By the way, Boston is so beautiful! It was really clean there and there were hardly any homeless people on the streets. One thing though, is that everyone crosses the streets when they feel like it. They don’t wait for the sign to tell them to walk at crosswalks. They just go! It was weird to get into that habit while we were there. I read online beforehand that Boston was not a driving city and after being there, there’s no way in hell that I’d ever want to drive there. The roads are all windy and weird and don’t make sense compared to where I live. It kind of gave me anxiety while we were in the Ubers, haha. I’d definitely go back to visit again for sure, though. The food was good and the people weren’t too grumpy.

We actually went back to the airport the next day to rent a car to drive to New York. We didn’t fly there or get a taxi. I wasn’t feeling too good on this particular day. I kept feeling like I was about to get a fever or something, but I never did. Luckily I didn’t have to drive so I was able to sleep for most of the drive. We stopped in Connecticut to get lunch but we didn’t see much. There was a small part where it snowed while we were driving but it was excessive. We left Boston right in time before their storm hit and we escaped the snow! It took about four hours to get to New York and we had to drop the rental car off at JFK and then get picked up by an Uber to take us to our hotel. We almost had that rental car for a couple more days but decided not to. Thank goodness because I have no idea where we would have even parked in the city or how we would have been able to drive without running someone over. Like Boston, people just walk when there aren’t cars driving by even if their light is green. It’s insane!

When we finally got to our hotel and got settled in, we figured we’d walk to Times Square! We got an Uber to take us to a place to eat for dinner and then we walked to Times Square. We ate at this cute Mexican inspired restaurant and I had some bomb sweet potato and black bean tacos and corn esquites! 10/10 would recommend that place if I could remember the name. I actually wish I wrote the names down of restaurants but I didn’t! Arg, oh well. If you want my honest opinion of Times Square, it’s that I actually didn’t think it was that awesome. I mean, yeah, it’s all bright and lit up because of the huge screens but after being there for 10 or so minutes, I was ready to leave. Over it. Next.

Our first full day consisted of us going to the 9/11 Memorial and the museum. It’s incredibly sad and I didn’t take any photo’s inside because I just didn’t feel like it. I actually have no idea how people took photo’s of themselves smiling outside by the waterfall. Like, what?? Insane. I regret not getting the earphones because it would have been nice to have a guided tour. If I ever go back I’ll for sure do that. We then wanted to go check out the Statue of Liberty. Upon approaching the area that we were just going to look at her (not actually visit the statue) we were approached by this man selling tickets for a boat ride that gets you up close and personal. We decided to go for it because, why not? He took us to this sketchy bus which we waited forever for it to actually leave and take us to where we needed to go. Then it took us to New Jersey where we’d board this boat. New Jersey?! So weird, but we went along with it. We got on that bus around 1:50 and we didn’t go on that boat until 3! It was kind of ridiculous but we just went with the flow of things. We were able to get really good photo’s of The Statue of Liberty so I’m appreciative of that. We also got a good look at the Freedom Tower and the Brooklyn Bridge. It was freezing on that boat and it took a chunk out of our day but I’m glad we did it. After all of that and we were back in New York, we stayed in Chinatown and found a cute restaurant to have pasta in Little Italy. I knew I wanted authentic Italian pasta while I was in New York and I’m not sure how authentic it was or not but it was damn good and I have no regrets! I ended that night with a dessert and we then headed back to our hotel for the night.

The second day was supposed to be this big storm and we were supposed to experience a ton of snow. None of it happened! We got pretty lucky. It did rain but it wasn’t anything we couldn’t handle. We got bagels for breakfast and then headed toward Central Park where we walked around and then found a zoo inside! It was really cute and a nice, fun thing to do. We made our way towards Trump Tower (probably the only time a building would make me want to puke just walking by) and headed to Laduree for some macaroons. I’ve seen people post them on Instagram so you know I had to try them out! They were good and the shop was really cute! After all of that I knew we had to get some New York pizza! I’m not a big meat eater so I don’t often get slices of pizza with pepperoni and sausage on it but man oh man, was that pizza bomb digs! Just thinking about it now makes my mouth water. The pizza was the perfect thickness and had the right amount of sauce and cheese on it. Amazing! We went back to the hotel to hangout for a while before we went to see The Book of Mormon on broadway. I got the tickets as a gift for Jesse for Christmas and it just so happened to be on his birthday! It worked out great. He said it was one of the best presents he’s ever had so that made me really happy. It was a great show and made everyone laugh. After the show it was about 10pm and we hadn’t had dinner yet so we went to Shake Shack. It’s hard not to compare it to In n Out but the burger didn’t have anything on In n Out’s burger. The fries were pretty good, though. Jesse ordered their spicy chicken sandwich and that was really tasty and I wish I got that instead of my cheeseburger.

Monday, the day before we had to leave. It was FREEZING. It was 8 degrees outside but felt like -1 (according to the weather app) and it was awful. The wind hurt when it hit our faces so we put on our face masks that we brought (highly recommend). On this day we were home sick and tired from everything we had done in the past several days. We went out to a mall and walked around and did a little shopping, ate lunch, and then decided to head back to the hotel and do absolutely nothing. It was a perfect lazy day. We never left the hotel for the rest of the day. We ordered food to be delivered to the hotel. I was craving a burrito and he was fine with eating one too, so that’s exactly what we did. We watched tv and my phone was able to connect to the tv so we watched some stuff on Netflix, too.

We probably Facetime’d my parents 3-4 times a day to see and talk to Levi. We missed him SO much it was insane. But it was also nice to have time for ourselves and just be selfish for a small amount of time. It was the first time in 8 months that we had full nights of sleep without any interruption of a baby crying. I wouldn’t trade Levi waking us up in the middle of the night for the world, but it was nice to have a small break to get back on our toes. We both agreed that we don’t want to go on a vacation without him for a long while. We talked about him all the time and kept saying how much we loved him and how we wished we could hold him and squeeze him because he’s so dang cute. Ugh! The love for your own child is infinite. What a blessing he is to us! My parents had a good time with him which was awesome. They are great at being grandparents!

This concludes everything we did on our vacation! It already seems like it happened so long ago. Our flight home was 6 long hours and we were so ready to leave New York. It was a nice city and I highly recommend going if you’ve never been. I’m actually glad we went in the winter time because I couldn’t imagine going in the summer when it’s all hot and humid. I hate being hot. I actually wouldn’t mind going back when it’s in the spring or fall because I’d love to see how it is when all the tree’s have leaves on them. If you’re a foodie like me then you’ll love the city. Chinatown and Little Italy was where it was at for me. I ate so good but I’m really happy to be home and have home cooked meals. I’m sure I gained a few pounds but I’m not mad at it. We got lucky and had a gym at the hotel in Boston so I did workout once while we were there. If our hotel in New York had a gym we would have definitely worked out there but I guess the walking makes up for some of it, yeah? I’d also say that New York City is cleaner than San Francisco and the only real nasty thing we saw was a woman throwing up on the sidewalk. I actually ran past her because I didn’t want to listen or smell it. Yuck. Besides that, it was pretty nice.

I’m hoping I didn’t forget anything else to tell you all about. It was a great trip and I’m so happy that Jesse wanted to do this instead of Hawaii (which was what I originally wanted). If you’re debating on whether you want to take a trip with your significant other or a friend, just do it! Even if it’s only a couple hours away. Go! You won’t regret it.

The Final Countdown.

We leave in a couple days for the east coast! I am super excited but also super terrified and anxious. I know Levi will be fine but I still worry anyways. I have a feeling I’ll be crying when we leave him to go to the airport. Our flight is at 8AM so we’ll have to leave our house at 5 to make it there in time since we’re leaving out of San Francisco and there will be commute traffic. Whenever I think about it I start to get butterflies in my stomach because I’m nervous. If you didn’t know this about me, I actually don’t like San Francisco at all and whenever we go somewhere I always try to find flights out of Oakland because it’s closer. Anyways, we’ll be heading to Boston, MA first and then going to New York a few days later! I’ll be sure to take a lot of photo’s to share with you all!

So last week wasn’t too bad (from what I can remember). It was a lot of doing the same ol’ stuff. We think Wilson’s itching is coming from allergies that could be seasonal (did I already talk about this? whoops). We have meds to give him and a special shampoo to bathe him in to help with all the redness on his tummy. I’m extremely nervous to have my in-laws give him the medication on time. I just worry, you know? It sucks that this had to happen right before our trip and that I won’t be around to make sure he’s being cared for as much as he possibly can. I gave him a bath with the special shampoo today so he should be fine until we come back next week to have another bath. I worry a lot about him too while we’re going to be gone.

Levi finally ate shredded cheese for Jesse but hasn’t had any for me. Although he isn’t eating solids as fast as all the other babies I know of his age or older, I just need to not worry about it. He’ll get there eventually. Hopefully. I’m not going to give up! He’s such a joy to be around. I love when he babbles and screams, it’s music to my ears! Happy screams, that is. He still sleeps with us in bed, which I still love although I’m planning on putting him back into his crib once the weather gets warmer. It’s so cold at night that I just love having him with us to cuddle with. I remember always saying, “I’ll never let my baby sleep with us in the bed!” Totally judging other parents who did. Now look at me! Hypocrisy at it’s finest.

I posted a little body update video on my Instagram earlier because I was feeling so good about how far I’ve come. I was a little embarrassed at first but everyone’s got a body so like, who cares! Every woman is beautiful and unique in their own ways and it should be embraced completely. Whether you’ve given birth or not. It’s obviously so easy to say now that I’m feeling better about myself because I definitely didn’t have this mindset a few months ago. I was so ecstatic today and the other day when I tried on some pre baby jeans and they FIT! Like, didn’t have to suck in it at all. Sure, the number on the scale hasn’t gone down dramatically but it didn’t have to. I’ve lost body fat and gained muscle and I’m obsessed with everything I’ve been doing lately. I’ve really tried and I’m so proud of myself. Not every day is a good day. Yesterday I ate terribly and today was just OK, nothing great. I accept it and I move forward and continue to eat good. I don’t want to give this up. I’m totally bummed that my training is about to end soon. I’ll have to try to make all these gains on my own and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t worried about it. I just hope I stay committed. I still haven’t signed up to a gym yet but there’s a new one close by that interests me so I plan on getting a free pass soon to try it out.

I feel like I haven’t talked about my blood sugars in a while. They were horrible a week ago and out of nowhere the past couple of days they’ve been awesome! Not sure what I was doing but they were pretty low actually that I seriously thought I was pregnant. I even took a test because they were shockingly low (not in a bad way). Pregnancy test is false, by the way. I must have just been doing really well with guessing carbs and doing the right amount of insulin! I did go high a couple of times today because I indulged a little. I finally got my Dexcom delivery and am wearing it right now! I should have never taken that break to be honest because it’s so helpful and it will be extremely helpful on this trip!

I have work tomorrow and then I’ll be staying at my parents house overnight so that it’ll be easier to leave in the morning instead of dropping Levi off at 5AM. I’ll try and write next Monday to talk about some of our adventures! Hope everyone has a great week 🙂

Stuffed Bell Peppers.

So I found this recipe online but I tweaked it a little to fit my own taste buds and what I had on hand! I will link the original recipe down at the bottom if anyone would like to try that one instead, but for this blog post you’ll be seeing mine!

I wanted to make something light but filling last week and I’ve actually never been a fan of stuffed bell peppers but it was the end of the week and I didn’t have much in my fridge. My mom used to make them and I always ate the filling and never ate the actual bell pepper. This recipe is different than what I grew up on and I think what makes them 10x better is that I don’t use green bell peppers! The peppers are nice and soft and totally delicious! Okay, enough of the rambling, let’s get to the recipe! (I actually don’t expect anyone to read this part because I never read these parts when searching a recipe but if you are reading this then hi! Hope you try this out and like it as much as I do!)

You’ll need…

  • 1lb Ground Meat, your choice (I’ve used ground turkey and ground beef and both work great)
  • 4 Bell Peppers (preferably red, orange, or yellow)
  • 1/2 Medium Onion, chopped
  • 2 Garlic Cloves, minced
  • 1/2 Can Diced Tomatoes (or a whole can if you want)
  • 3/4 Cup Frozen Corn & Bean Mixture (I found a southwest blend of frozen veggies at the store)
  • 2 Cups Cooked Rice (any kind you’d like, I used Minute Rice because it was quick)
  • 1 tbsp Chili Powder
  • 1/2 tbsp Cumin
  • 1 tsp Salt
  • 1/2 tsp Pepper
  • Shredded Cheese of your choice (Pepper jack, Monterey Jack, Mexican Blend)
  • 2 tbsp Water
  1. Preheat oven to 350.
  2. Slice your bell peppers in half and assemble them in a baking dish.
  3. Brown your meat on medium high heat, with no oil added to the pan. Drain.
  4. Add your onion and garlic to the pan and sauté for a few minutes or so until the onion is softened. If you need to add oil to the pan because the meat didn’t leave any after you drained it, then add a tbsp or so.
  5. Add your meat back into the pan and add your seasonings, frozen veggies and beans, tomatoes, and rice. Stir well to combine.
  6. Pack your ground meat mixture into each bell pepper, making sure to really fill them up. Once every pepper is filled, top with the cheese of your choice and however much you’d like.
  7. Add water to the bottom of the baking dish as this will help steam the bell peppers so they will soften while they bake.
  8. Bake, covered with foil, for 20 minutes. Then uncover and bake for another 20 minutes.

I usually eat my bell peppers with hot sauce and a dollop of sour cream because hi, I love sour cream and will never get rid of it!

*You might have leftover meat mixture and that’s OK! Put it in a tortilla and make a burrito for the next day. The first time I made this I only had two bell peppers and there were a lot of leftovers. For anyone in your family who doesn’t like stuffed bell peppers, just don’t use as many bell peppers and make burritos or tacos for them instead!*

Original Recipe